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iv had diabetes since september and the so called honeymoon took effect since october.since then its been almost 6 months and still on the honeymoon but iv been kinda lost cause i dont take my #'s as often cause it comes down and i eat junk again and lately my hands have like a pins and needles feeling and my sugars been up and i dont carry my monitor or glucose pills any more. its like i forgot im diabetic? do you guys/girls go through this.i feel like if i carry all this stuff and talk about diabetes alot im complaining and dont want that.am i in ignorance again? i go on the forums alot and dont say much and dont feel like i am part of the diabetic group i quess.no one else im with has this disease and my fiance and her family go out to dinner alot and i go or i get into trouble with her and not bad trouble but its like she doesnt understand and they cook meals that would feed a horse and i dont have alot of self control. plus i got a new job and im on the run alot and do you guys/girls bring all your food with you cause if i have to do that i have to make lunch and dinner and my kidneys don work that good anymore and ihave to take urines tests all day today.i feel overwhelmed and dont know what to do.im not on insulin or meds. thanks guys for your help  | 
