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Originally Posted by Nejeda

I feel that forcing a seven year old to care for herself, to grow up and care for her disease, while effective as it was, may have been too harsh on my parents part. Yet, at the same time I sort of thank them, and loathe them for it all in the same moment. Because I am so much more mature then the rest of my peers I have set standards for myself unknowingly, which my parents enforce to the 'T'. I am sixteen and have yet to make mistakes and get grounded for dumb things that others are doing. I'm taking AP classes next year! (AP stands for Advanced Placement, which is the equivilent of a college freshmen level class) And my parents expect this from me. Now, don't get me wrong, I can do it, and I want to, in fact it's what I love to do--learn. But because I'm at that point in my maturity, where what I want to do is learn, my peers look to me to be 'answer gal'. I'm so tired of all the "highschool drama" going on with them, it's like I want to scream at them and make them realize that in two months all this won't matter, that in two years these "beautiful girls" won't be beautiful anymore, that there is more in the world to worry about. That they aren't bullet proof, and they aren't knife proof, and those drugs they are smoking and that alcohol they drank over the weekend will hurt them, that they aren't immune to it all.

And that is the point at which I feel like I am going crazy, and maybe I'm not more mature, that many I'm just different?

I hate to say it, but they will just have to learn the hard way. It is not like they haven't heard that all those things will hurt them. They will just have to make their own adjustments after HS, and they will have to get used to you not being there to give them all the answers.

And, I promise you, HS doesn't last forever. College is so much better. Nowhere near that much drama. And, if there is drama, it is easier to get away from it. Hang in there hun All will be well!