| Michael,
WOW!
Reading your post, I could hear Bill. He has told me some of the things you have mentioned.
He IS frightened at the thought of what is happening to his body! And 20 points from 70 to 50, is a HUGE difference...
Until coming here and doing even more internet research, I didn't realize how frightening this disease is. Bill's Mother, would tell me how important it is to keep an eye on him. I would tell her, he's a full grown man, he should know how to take care of himself! I have learned different... He does not always know what he is doing.
You explain, nearly a mirror of Bill's experiences, since the onset of his diabetes. He has an incredible inner strength and willpower. He is literaly a walking book of knowledge when it comes to foods and their affects on the body. I know he has what it takes get a grip on his blood sugar levels. He is a perfectionist, and having fought the ties of perfectionism myself, I know that too, plays it's own nasty roll in his frustrations.
When I started this thread, I was frustrated at the way I thought Bill was treating me. I felt he had no respect for me, as he would lash out at me for seemingly no apparent reason. I had been through a few months of periodical, unacceptable behavior and apparent negligance of his blood sugar levels. Since I have applied myself to learn about diabetes and payed better attention to him and his blood sugar levels, the unhealthy occurances of either have subsided. My lack of knowledge kept me from seeing what was actually happening. I can communicate better, and have more compassion and patience.
Bill, has always been proud of his body, his appearance is a fine speciman of male physique. He tells me that he hasn't worked out with weights, in a few years and amoungst other things, I think he's been in a slump. Last night, we started a weight lifting program and he told me, he will be monitoring his blood sugar more often, in order to compensate for food and insulin. I know, if he feels better about himself, he will in turn take better care of his body.
MILLIE, I have noticed that Bill may be having the memory lapses you speak of. It seems to be more short term, like he will not remember the name of a friend I introduce to him, even after he has met them several times, been to their home, etc. When he's talking about something, explaining whatever, the point will be on the 'tip of his tounge', so to speak and I see a frustrated look come over his face, he know's it's there, but it won't come out! Bill has also been in an auto accident, with head injuries, over 10 years ago.
When Bill lashes out, he'll smile afterwards, almost like he is surprised at what he said. He never stays angry.
Thanks again, for getting involved in this thread, you've been a great help to me...
CherylAnne  | 
