| Frustration
My HbA1C is 6.9 and I am not in the best of moods. It's a decent number, but I've tried SO HARD and now it doesn't seem like it was worth all the trouble.
I have an irrational fear of hypos and find it very hard to keep panic under control if I'm under 6 (117) and out of the house. I try to be a decent mother to my child and I do go to work every day although there's a lot of psychological pain involved on a regular basis.
I feel so angry with myself, with diabetes, with everyone and everything at the moment and I will admit that I sometimes get so jealous of low a1c's a lot of people seem to have (how despicable, but how human).
But I believe this too, will pass, and I will soon enjoy a lighthearted banter and share wonderful experiences with all of you at DF - the only ones who understand. | 
