[cheryl]

Hi Jayson,

Well, soda is the only thing I do wrong period end of discussion. I hate glucose tablets and juice believe it or not gives me heartburn yuck..........and soda doesn't.........I am already having to cut out the soda for a meal so am going nutso without caffeine in morning........


The endo told me that.........I was scared to drop my dose to 18 units cause previously I have spiked really high but I haven't since they dropped my dose......


Diabetes has taken every joy I can imagine food wise out of my life. I am feeling very sorry for myself right now. If I drink coffee, it gives me an anxiety attack. I can't consume aspertame, splenda, sacchrine, nothing, I get anxiety attacks period it's a long story but they are a big no no, so besides water does anyone have any suggestions on what to drink...........no of course not..........i bought some club soda and put some lemon in it with Stevia, it was ok, not something I would enjoy all the time.......the only thing that I did not want to give up period I am going to have too.........

The dieticians and what not put me on 60 carbs per meal.......well great......now I have to replace with food with lunch, dinner I got taken care of but, lunch I eat a sandwhich and salad, so soda works and adds up to 60 good deal.....and I hate it, I have had this problem on another forum oh drink diet soda, crystal light, blah blah blah,,,,,,,,, well I can't it doesn't agree with me. For years I drank diet soda........then I was doing so awful with these panik attacks and brain freezes.....my mom found something on the internet about about aspertame. Well, I stopped drinking it and boom bam, I was better. I went to coffee in the morning. I did fine. Then I got bad and started to slowly drink soda.......then it became a habit. A bad habit.

I had no choice but to eat and drive. Long story, but I wouldn't normally do that, of course, I do not know of most people that actually keep both hands on the steering wheel at all times. I see more people swerving with cell phones, then me eating my breakfast....not a big deal......

I am having bad withdrawls from this. I am mad at the world for it. I kind of feel bad about witching about it, but I am.....people have it a lot worse than I do. Call me a spoiled whatever you want to call me. I look at my life and see we are broke beyond compare. My body is shot from having kids. Really shot like yuck, well not that bad but considering four kids........and then to have some walking around without a mark on them and gaining 100 pounds, ticks me off. I gained forty with my third, that was the highest, the other less and the least I gained was 20, so wtf, is that all about. Ok I deal with that. I deal with the fact, I have to test and count and take my blood sugars and deal with the fact I am broke. But now everyone is going way to far, taking the only thing I like to drink. I don't smoke, or do drugs or drink alcohol. I don't eat junk food. I don't eat red meat. I don't eat nothing white. I eat fruits and veggies and tofu and nuts and grains and plain plain plain. Unless I go out to eat, then I indulge in the bad. I work out........**** and now everyone wants me to give up my one bad vice..........


Ok, I feel better now......I am having withdrawls don't mind me......

Cheryl