OK, maybe calling myself a "reformed T1" is pushing it, but I've been doing some thinking about how my life has changed recently.
I used to pride myself on how my diabetes didn't make me "different" and didn't (for the most part) affect my choices about what to eat or what to do. My diabetes was very secondary to other factors in making decisions and I did everything I wanted to in spite of the diabetes.
Now my diabetes dictates a
lot of what I do, but by choice...if that makes sense. I mean, I know I
could eat whatever I want for dinner, but I don't because I know that the smarter (but still tasty) option will make my bloodsugar a lot more stable and predictable. I
could have a cookie in the afternoon and bolus for it (benefits of being T1), but I don't because it's easier to maintain the balance if I don't. Even just this morning, I was going to walk to Tim Hortons with some of my co-workers, but I knew my bloodsugar wouldn't make it there and back (it's a little ways). I could have had a little snack (e.g. from Tim Hortons) to make it work, but again....it's easier to maintain the balance if I just don't.
Now, I really don't think I'll be this "cautious" forever....and I'll learn these new balances soon, but it's just weird for me to be living like this right now, after 25 years with D. That said....this control I'm able to have is so empowering! I feel great! I've brought my A1C down significantly, (already reducing my chances of complications by over 30% in 3 months), I've gotten rid of some of that extra fat that hangs around and makes my clothes not fit as well as I'd like, and I'm making uber-healthy food choices. So in some ways this control is providing me with freedom as well! It's kind of a paradox.
Anyway, there's no specific question here, but I welcome any and all comments.....
Here end the ramblings by a reformed T1
