| I understand what you're saying completely. I spent the first 5 years with D basically being what I call "willingly ignorant". I knew NOTHING about what I was doing, and I really didn't care. Looking back now it amazes me that I didn't end up in the hospital...insulin really isn't a good thing to be on when you aren't paying attention.
But last summer I got committed to learning how to control this thing, and like you, I've found myself making some changes that seem restrictive to some, but they are the best choices for me.
It's all so mental. If you tell me I can't have something, I would probably eat it anyway to prove you wrong, but having decided myself that it's something I shouldn't do right this minute, well, that's another story!
And yes, I, too, have found that restricting myself is very freeing. And that one really took me by suprise. | 
