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Originally Posted by Injecto  Perhaps this should be in another thread but I'm going to ask here anyways, for now. How can you, and others, say that you don't think about your diabetes that much? I think that's great that you can be like that and I really want to be like that myself. Unfortunately for me it consumes my thoughts almost every minute of my waking day. I constantly think about where I am, too high, too low, what if I sit all day at work will I go high, but I don't want to bolus too much to go low, is my basal right, what will happen to my BGs whem I get active. I worry about complications by the time I'm 50 when I still have at least another 20 years to live. Will I retire? Will I have enough $$$ to help my condition if I live to retirement? Am I already hypoglycemic unaware? etc.....
Don't get me wrong, I would love to just not think about it too much, but in order to not think about it too much I fear I won't be able to control it. I'm at a loss here. |
If I am running really high then yes, I worry about the future. High BG makes me really blue and certainly makes me focus on the negative 'what if' questions. If I'm doing OK day to day then it really doesn't cross my mind.
Now let me ask you a question. Before you had diabetes, did you constantly worry about the fact that one day you will certainly die? Almost certainly not. Very few people on this earth constantly worry about this event as we know that constantly focusing on it will really spoil your day.
If the answer is 'no, you didn't used to do that', why are you spending your life now worrying about the 'mights' when the one absolute certainty in your life never used to worry you?
As long as you can look yourself in the eye and say that you are doing your absolute best to look after yourself on a daily basis then the future will just have to bring what it will; giving it any further thought will not change the outcome. Unless you get sick due to the stress you are putting yourself under by the constant worry.
If you worry about it when you are feeling good in the here and now, the condition has won and I just will not allow that. It is a part of me that sometimes affects me physically for the worse and allowing it to rule my thoughts as well is just giving it too much importance as opposed to enjoying life.
Gary
