I couldn't think about anything else at the beginning. Anxiety levels went through the roof. I remember telling myself that STRESS would finally kill me off, not diabetes. And very soon too!
In French we say
'vitesse de croisière' which, unfortunately I can't really translate. (Anyone that can help here please do!) ... But it means I've lived for a certain time with the disease and I am now
sailing at a speed which feels comfortable to me.
I am trying to recall when this happened exactly but I can't. There were ups and downs along the way too. I certainly think about diabetes a lot when sick or having probs like at the moment with those stupid ACE inhibitors. Don't know if I ever blamed diabetes but I sure hate the disease. With a passion! At times I sure am frustrated let me tell you....!!!! I don't always think consciously about diabetes now but it's there, at the back of my mind. Pops up, once in a while, depending on circumstances. Now I even do stuff for my diabetes without really thinking about it. Weird, isn't it? But I know what the complications are, and I am not being careless whatsoever. I know that along the way my
'vitesse de croisière' will have to change and adapt to new circumstances too. That's what this stupid big D is all about : it changes. All the time.
I do hope you find your
'vitesse de croisière' soon Injecto.
