[cheryl]

I blame diabetes, for a few things myself, the more I started to care about it the more I thought, oh man is this cause I didn't take care of myself and all these crazy thoughts came into my head. But, I am trying not it let it get the best of me. I probably have so much fear now cause I have four kids too. The fear technically started around the third child. I also was a little older by this point. When you start thinking omg, am i not going to be around for these kids, every little tingle and pain your mind starts wandering. I am trying to get better cause anxiety will obviously kill me too. So I am dealing with it the best I can. But I too blame my moodiness of either D or pms.......so if it is those two, my hubby doesn't fight back lol

Cheryl