[tanyatype1]

Injecto, I feel happy that you do trust us enough to tell us your personal stuff. (or maybe it's the anonymity of the forum) You might have to take time off to come to grips with D and to become more comfortable/accepting of it, but then you can get back to making your dreams come true. Even if it takes a couple years - you're still young! I think that D seems to be impacting your life in such a negative way right now that it's almost as bad as future complications - but it's happening right now! Don't let D control/ruin your life - it doesn't have too! (I really feel for you and I'm trying to say something comforting or helpful but I don't think it's coming out that way.) I think that when you're 60, and your playing guitar, sitting by a lake at your cottage, you'll look back on this time in your life as a little blip on the radar screen! You can still totally make your dreams come true.