[grace girl]

I've got a problem going here, and I don't know quite what to do about it. About three or four weeks ago I went through ten days solid of pms and I couldn't get my numbers under control for anything. I was just constanly high. All that has passed now, yet I am doing stupid things daily that are keeping me high. I'm taking all of my insulin, I'm still counting those carbs and shooting accordingly, but then an hour later I'll just go eat whatever and I just plain don't care. I've seen more 300's in the past month than ever before....and I just don't seem to care.
It's not denial, I'm pretty sure I already did that long ago. I don't feel frustrated about dealing with d, nothing is bothering me....I've analyzed myself to peices trying to figure out what is up with me, and I've got no clue.
I know I need to stop this, I know I need to get my act together, and I wake up every day telling myself I'm going to do it right today....and I don't. And I don't understand my own behavior...you'd have to know me well to understand that, but I'm probably one of the most motivated people you'll ever know. I always stay on top of EVERYTHING... It's just the way I am...I believe you should give 100% to anything you do, and I do. Except here in this one area........

If anyone has some advice, I'm open to it, just please no dramatics about complications. Fear has never been a great motivating factor for me. What could happen tomorrow doesn't move me a whole lot, I'm always more interested in right now.