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I say give yourself a break. Motivation is the key yeah? Motivation is why you posted this in the first place, yeah?
And once you are motivated to keep good control, it will never leave you, one can get fed up and give up. . . for a while,but burnout will never last.
But I would take a good long look at the idea of losing weight with high blood sugars, that has eating disorder written all over it.
Mark