| Hi, Exohstephh,
Feeling without hope is wretched, but I can tell you after 40 years with this, that there are things you can do to make it easier, to maybe make it feel less hopeless. First of all, you're smart enough to come here and ask for help.
I apologize in advance if what follows is too long--or sounds preachy. I empathize with what you're dealing with, and I'd like to help if I can.
You've identified a symptom that can have many, many causes. It's not about *you* doing anything wrong--i.e., you're not eating right--it's about your constantly changing body letting you know that something's a bit off, that it's a good moment for you to consider what's going on to try and get better control. Even though you don't feel it, your body is changing constantly--making new skin cells, new blood cells, changing carbohydrates into different versions of carbon and hydrogen--quietly, all the time. It performs millions of chemical reactions every day, and any few of them might be having some impact on your BG.
There are some people on this website--I'm not one of them--who have achieved pretty good BG stability (I'll never say "perfect"--there's no such thing!), but it's taken a lot of work.
I have some really personal questions, if you want to consider these things. (You don't have to answer; maybe they'll just give you things to think about.) My first one is, you said that this started recently. Have there been any significant changes in your life lately? School schedule changes? Midterms? Spring break? Family issues? Boyfriend? Friends? Changes in life can create stress, which can affect BGs big time.
You sound sad. Were you sad before this started? Is there any reason you might be depressed? That too can have a big effect.
Have you spoken to your doctor about these changes? S/he should know your status well enough that s/he may have an idea of what's going on. S/he may want you to take some tests to see if something's changed.
I wish I could say it was as simple as, Eat XYZ brand granola bar at 4:37 p.m. and it'll all be fine--I'd bet all of us here on this website have hoped for that at some time or another--but it's not likely anyone's found it. There are foods that each of our body's uses better than others, that are more helpful, but I'd first try and look into what's *causing* the problem.
As for the pump: It is scary. It took me years to decide to try it, and lots of research. I started it a couple of months ago, and I'm not fully comfy yet. You can always go back to injections. There's no absolute mandate that you have to continue it if you don't like it, if it doesn't work for you.
It's up to you.
Good luck, and do stick around here; I've gotten a lot of *great* ideas and advice.  | 
