Thanks for the support
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Originally Posted by Jan B  ... Do you feel like you are trying too hard? Does your tight control feel like you are taking some of the fun out of your life? ..... |
Mmmm ... you have opened a can of worms there
. It is a complex question. I do believe, having lived with it for so long, that there is a real risk of diabetes management becoming the unfortunate recipient of nonproductive and unhealthy energies. Managing blood sugar becomes part of a coping mechanism that can be quite destructive, and it manifests in different ways with different people.
I am painfully aware that, when I am having to deal with other frustrations, I redirect this negative energy into managing the diabetes. Perhaps it is because I feel the much sought-after sense of control that has abandoned me in my other activities (especially work). When this happens, my control tends to become somewhat uncompromising and aggressive. This is not good. It can lead to bad outcomes. The fact that it is a subconscious though pattern makes observing and dealing with it difficult. I guess sometimes we just need to take step back from ourselves so we can watch what is going on.
The high blood pressure was probably
because of the hypo - all those stress hormones. And yes, Caroline thinks I am
way too anal about everything!
