[nicole]

So I haven't been on here in a while. I really haven't been on the computer though.

And thats all because I've been feeling really depressed. The kind of depressed where I either want to curl up in bed and sleep all the negative thoughts away or just end it all. I find myself wanting to cry all the time. Why I'm so depressed...I don't know. Its like as soon as I find things going better than ever...I begin to fall back into that down kind of mood. Granted there has been alot of things going on the past couple of weeks or so, well I should say the past couple of months. I wasn't feeling like this up until the middle or end of February after my boyfriend and I were jumped by four or five people. Since then I've had a rough time going out by myself, and all that. But recently it started to get worse. I thin kit really got bad after I had to take my boyfriend to the hospital. He was in so much pain and asked me to drive him there, and I did, doctor came in said he had appendicitis and had to have them removed. He went for an emergency appendectomy first thing the next morning. All I could worry about was if he was going to be okay, because the doctor said if he had waited a couple more days they would have burst probably killing him, then a week later I had to take him back because the incisions were infected. I don't know...maybe I worry too much and think about things that I shouldn't. On top of all that I've been really stressed out. I lost my job, I'm having trouble finding another one, I'm trying to get back to school, but every time I go to start something comes up preventing me from going, and theres other things going on too. Personal things I really don't want to broadcast on this forum, but if you want to talk to me about it, and maybe try to make me feel a little better send me a private message or send me a message on myspace- MySpace.com - www.myspace.com/271085540 and I have AIM-niicoleemariiee3. So whatever you feel like doing. I just need someone to talk to, so I can get things off my mind.


p.s. Its back to the poor testing again...HELP!!