[adiantum]

I'm so sorry your having such a hard time Nicole . It's wierd how life runs really smooth , & then all of a sudden we are dumped into all sorts of experiences & challenges. We try to deal with them & then our lives turns around & become fun once again.
I hope your fun times are just around the corner.
Just be kind to yourself. Do something exciting like going to a live concert etc. Something you have to force yourself to put on the good gear & the smile on your face & close the door behind you for a few hours. The weather should be warnming up, making an outing more fun.
I'm not a good communicator so wont PM you, so all I can do is send positive energy up there for you & wish the very best for you.