[Jan B]

Nicole,

I feel for you. I just want you to know that age 19 was one of the hardest years of my life, and I have made it all the way to almost 47. I went through a lot of denial about having diabetes forever, a so-called suicide attempt, therapists, drugs to help w/depression and sleep, and I'm amazed sometimes I'm still alive. I promise you that it will get better as long as you hang in there and believe. I'm really glad you express how bad you feel. Please hang with us, and work on getting your blood sugar until control. I used to get so sick of doctors blaming all problems on the diabetes, but there is a lot of truth to that. With better control, you won't be quite as down, and your whole body will cooperate more, giving you a better feeling and quality of life.