[princesslinda]

Aurelius, you're still very new to diabetes, so its only natural that it would be in the forefront of your mind. Your life has changed so dramatically, you now have to focus on everything you eat, making sure you get proper exercise...its enough to make anyone a little obsessive.

I remember my husband asking me early on "can't we go one day without talking about diabetes?" At the time, I was crushed. My diabetes had become the focus of my life, then I realized that it wasn't just the focus of my life, it was becoming my life and that wasn't fair to me or my husband.

I watched my mom die from complications of uncontrolled diabetes, because she wouldn't take control and eat and do as she should, and if I let myself, I could worry so much that I wouldn't be able to function. What i've basically had to do is tell myself that I have diabetes, I am doing EVERYTHING in my power to keep myself healthy...that's all I can do. Sure something bad "might' happen to me at some point...its going to happen to everyone, diabetic or not, if we live long enough...but there's a peace that comes in being proactive abut your health.

I think most people don't think much about diabetes at all unless if affects them (either personally or within their family). I think UNCONTROLLED diabetes is a very serious disease, but if we control it, we can have a healthy and happy life....and there are much more serious diseases we could have had.

Give yourself time to adjust to all that's changed in your life. Maybe consciously go a weekend without mentioning your blood sugar results, your diabetes or what you need to eat around your wife. Diabetes doesn't just affect us, it affects our spouses and families as well...and they truly can't understand what we're going through. That's why the forums are so important...no one understands unless they've lived it themselves.

In time, you'll find a way to live your life normally with diabetes. Try not to worry so much. Reading all these posts should let you see how well so many people are doing in managing their diabetes. Its very encouraging to me personally.

You're going to be fine!