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Originally Posted by fgummett  I have to agree with above posts that the pump and CGMS are just tools which can help you, BUT only if you are willing to work with them.. and for most people that means MORE work, not less. There is no such thing as an artificial pancreas yet where an ultra-sensitive CGMS controls the pump through a continuos feedback loop. The vital missing part of the equation is your willingness to test OFTEN... rather than 4-5 times "when you are able" (what does that actually mean?) a pump can require 8, 10, 12 tests a day especially when you are first starting out with it and even more especially if your control is brittle.
Sorry if I also sound harsh but you are using words like you are "spoilt" which to my thinking doesn't really apply to Diabetes... you are not treating yourself (or your family) well by not testing and taking good care of yourself. It's great that you are researching tools that could help you but unless you are willing to step up to the plate, they could at worst cause you (and your family) harm or at least be a waste of money.
You say, "on the pump my sugars are one hundred percent better", but at the same time your last A1c was 10%, what was it before? |
NP about sounding harsh, before the pump I was walking around with blood sugars in the 4-500's everyday. I had conditioned my body to live at that level of bloodsugars and I am sure God helped keep me alive. When I got on my pump after the first week my son at 9 said mom you haven't yelled for a week. I often forget to take my insulin trying to make others happy.
Now before you all get on the bashing band wagon, I do hate diabetes but I had an abuser who used my diabetes as a reason for the abuse. So long ago in my mind I equate diabetes with self hate- ex. if I didn't have diabetes I wouldn't have been molested. so before you start trying to tell me to grow up you need to understand I have come along way in my journey and I am growing up I may not be doing it at the rate everyone else thinks I should but that is ok
I guess I am looking for something to come along and just magically take care of this **** but I have to take care of everyone else from my mom to my sister to my son. I think sometimes I am the **** bucket for the family lol I want to be healthy and I want to have great blood sugars but that would entail me cutting alot of my family out of my life and I am not willing to do that. So anything I can find to help me improve my bloodsugars and make me more aware of where they are at each hour I thought would help me pay more attention to them and maybe help my family to understand that it is not a disease I can turn off and on like I have been doing for the past 33 years.
I am not asking for pitty or sympathy I know every decision I have made in my life has been made by me and what I precieve to be my duty. As for living long so I can continue to help them, it doesn't matter when I die someone else will take my place I just want to be a good daughter, mother and sister while I am here on earth. And yes I do see a therapist for many more things then I care to list here and yes I know if you have never dealt with depresssion or abuse this will seem like a really stupid way of looking at things, right now i need to get off my butt and exercise so I am working on that. sorry I do appreciate all you comments and replies it helps alot to speak with people who have been taught to pay attention to thier diabetes and not to pretend it does not exist.......................
thanks again April
P.S. don't hate me because I am an idiot, just talk to me and bring me around to your way of thinking as a friend
