Hey April,
I don't think anyone here think of you as an idiot. If the folks here didn't care... well... not only would DF cease to exist, but you certainly would not have gotten some of the forthright responses on this thread.
Have you tried talking this over with your family... I'll bet you
anything that they would rather have you around them, healthy and happy for as long as possible, than see you work yourself into an early grave... guaranteed 100%... no question. I'll go further and suggest that they would be willing to help you out in ways that you can't even imagine yet
~ Frank