[Jan B]

Pooh,

I admire your honesty about how bad you are about testing and taking care of yourself. I see a lot of truth in every single thing that has been said. First, you must care about, and love yourself. A very sad truth, to me, and obviously it's happening to you . . . . is when you are deeply hurt, you/we tend to hurt ourselves even more. This behavior may be more common among those who have been abused. I know that when you have been pounded on, it's crazy, but common, to jump in and join the abusers by abusing yourself. STOP!!

The simplest way to get better control of your diabetes is to test more often. Test first thing in the morning. If you are high and take a correction, make sure to test again in 3, 4, or for sure 5 hours to make sure that your bs went down enough. Always test before meals, and bolus the correct amoount of carbs, even for the little snacks you might throw in.

Treat yourself with love and put yourself/your health above the wants/desires of anyone else. The time involved in better care, testing more and making wiser food choices is minimal. Taking a cigarette break for example, would take more time than checking and correcting your blood sugar.

Once again, I admire your honesty. Plunge right in and LOOK through your meter numbers to see what you are doing to yourself. Then, promise yourself you will begin testing more. Testing more really is a huge part of getting it together.