Mich,
Thank you, and yes, I have told my husband so many times over the past year, if I can JUST make it thru all of this, I'll be fine and I don't think anything could ever touch me again, not like that..... lol
Self preservation is what I was raised with, I had to learn to deal with things from within and no matter how hard I try, that's how I do it. I can promise you this, EVERY single thing hurt me a lot deeper than anyone could ever know from outward appearances.
I told my son when HE got so mad at me for butting in, "I love you and I don't care if I have to go thru you, around you or right smack over the top of you, I WILL get your attention and someday, not for many years until that baby gets older and you have to actually BE a dad, you will thank me, and understand what parents have to do, and it isn't always nice". I am a MOM first, a friend second....
