[cheryl]

I am not going to judge what you have done,. I want to say things happen for a reason. Sometimes what you think is going out drinking having a good time could indeed have killed you. Now you are questioning yourself, deep down you knew your lifestyle was dangerous......I think you know what you need to do, and I hate to say it but if the only way your going to change is being a diabetic then heed the warning, someone somewhere actually still wants you alive, not dead.....Karma, God, ALLA, whatever you may believe, things happen for a reason...

As to what type, in all honesty, I cannot judge my Dad's bg's were skyrocket high to and he is a type 2, and I mean around your numbers, but the only way to determine this is to demand the appropriate testing.....and also, type 1 well, It's not in my family and it hit me at age 12, and it pissed me off.....I understand why I have it, but I was upset too, I was in denial for a long long time, I took my insulin but that was the extent of diabetes....

I was unraveling like a leaf the past two years, I think I was coming out of my denial phase after 15-16 years of having it, I sounded like a broken record on both forums I am on, and all that,

Trust me, go find out what is really going on. And quit the booze, I think you have an issue with that also, if you dont want us to comment on it, then I think you should go to AA also.....seriously this is what I am getting at. My Dad is a recovering alcoholic and a drug addict, so I know the signs.....and I lived with it....Not that I am pegging you anythng but I feel you need to get some peer group help.....

Do not take me the wrong way, i wrote this because I care, not because I am mean...I hope the best for ya...

Cheryl