Good morning everyone,
I had posted around 3 weeks ago about having a supsected UTI as I had cramps, nausea and terrible pain/pressure in my lower abdomen and towards my left side around my back.
I have taken 3 different types of antibiotics since then, had the bladder infection come back negative and just finished round 3 of all the meds yesterday.
Monday night it was so bad I finally gave in and went to ER as the pain was excruciating (and I have a very high pain tolerance) so figured I had to bite the bullet and go. I will be ever so glad I did from now on.
I presented with midgrade fever which I had been dealing with since the beginning and severe pain in my lower abdomen reaching around to my left side and mid back (kidney location)' From poking, prodding and other such misery tests they were baffled and sent me for a CT scan,they were thinking it was perhaps kidney stones, which I did Thursday morning.
I had a call yesterday from my Doc to come in asap to see him, they squeezed me in last thing yesterday. He comes in and is standing there looking at me, semi shocked. He then asks me a few questions about this supposed UII I had been dealing with, had it improved, how was I feeling, how come I ended up in ER?
Either way, this is the new story. I have a "strange, growing mass on the left side" , possibly on my kidney (likely) or my ovary (unlikely as this was checked only a couple of months ago.) I was sent for more blood work straight away, urinalysis and my doc is going to have a consult with the radiologist Monday morning to see what the two of them think.He said I should leave my calendar empty next week if poss as there will be a barrage of more tests, CT, ultrasounds and whatever else they want to do.
He sent me home with Oxycodone (controlled substance here) for the pain and basically said rest, lay around, heating pad on if needed, taking pain meds when needed.
As I sit here typing this I am still in shock, still in pain and wondering what the **** more do I need right now in my life? I of course am trying to convince myself this is not real, that the pain I feel is over rated and that all will be good. I do have to stick with the all will be good theory or the likelihood of this much waiting and wondering will all just take it's toll on me and I can not be weak at this time.
Perhaps a second scan will show nothing and I will just be ok. That would work for me in my life right now seeing xmas is coming and there is much to do for preparations. I will throw myself into that for mental relief if I can drag my sorry *** off the couch long enough to get things done.
Sorry about the pity me attitude of this,that is not what I am going for at all, it is more of a vent than anything else... it is always easier to put to pen/type some thoughts rather than talking about them too much.
One of my friends who I ran into last night while getting 'scripts is coming over today to hang out this morning and all I can think about is my house is in utter chaos as I haven't been up to doing much around it other than making sure son is fed and not trying to sneak my spot on the couch!
Going to get the kitchen cleaned up at least before she gets here!
Cass
