[aidenjazz]

Hello, I registered here because I dont know anyone else with type 1 diabetes and I dont think there is anyone in my life that understand this really.. I am 24, I was diagnosed about 9 months ago...I was told i have to do 4 shots a day.....3 shots of novalog....one before each meal 3 times a day, and a shot of lantus each night before bed. Before this i was terrified of needles but i got over it and began eating 3 meals a day with 5 or so carbs per meal and doing the shots like they told me. I was doing pretty good sticking to this plan for he first 6 months...lately It has been hard for me and i dont know where to get answers, my doctor is nice enough but he is not personable..he doesent take even 5 minutes with me or give me a chance to ask a few questions. Lately I have been having such a hard time because im just not hungry enough to eat all 5 1/2 carb choices per meal.....i have figured out how to adjust the novalog to take just enough for whatever im going to eat...but i dont know if i should still be taking the same amount of lantus at night..For example they sent me home eating like 18-20 carb choices throughout the course of a day the novalog with each meal and 18 units of lantus at night.....now if i only eat 8 or so carbs through the whole day..do i still take the full 18 of lantus at night? I have been having a really hard time lately, my emotions are all over the place.....nobody uunderstands that sometimes i just do not feel right...the past few months i have given up testing myself...i find myself saying im not hungry or skipping breakfest and or lunch just because i dont want to do a shot...i mean 4 shots a day thats like a shot every 4 1/2 hours or so....i dont know if its okay to eat a breakfest like 2 scrabled eggs and one peice of wheat toast with water...without taking a shot is this ok? I would love to be able to just do the lantus and night and do away with at least one of the 3 novalog shots....i just dont know if i can...when i ask the doctor i get a 2 second answer...just try to stick to the plan...and then he runs away fast.....no time to ask anything. I dont like having a sort temper with my family, sometimes i will get very heated because ive been runnun around all day i come home smelling good food and when i sit to eat i look down.......a unmeasured pile of stuffing and an unmeasured pile of packaged cheddar rice with some chicken...so rather than try to guess and wonder and gamble on how ill fell if i try to take a shot to compensate for this unknown carb amount...i just eat a few bites of chicken and leave.. I feel very bad putting my wife through all of this, like i said i havent been checking lately, just taking the novalog for the carbs i do eat........my last A1c doing this was actually good a 5.5! But i was eatin 3 meals a day with 5 carbs each following the plan they gave me, just not checking......now im not checking and im probobly eating 1 good meal per day. Im sorry for rambeling..i just dont feel like 100% anymore i cant take giving myself 4 shots a day...i still have a time with that the shots are uncomfortable and i find myself doing it in generally the same spots on my butt most of the time because there are only a few spots where i really cant feel it....thanks for listening and allwoing me a place to get some of this out...god bless you all