[mell1682]

I cannot imagine how many thoughts and fears you have right now...and I'm sorry you're facing some pretty tough stuff. I have so been there when I found out I was unexpectedly pregnant the 3rd time...I was in the same boat (we can barely afford the 2 we have now and I was terrified about another pregnancy after 21 years of diabetes), and thinking a lot about what I was going to do, and abortion was even mentioned and I'd be lying if I said I didn't think about it cuz I did, and now I think there was a higher power involved cuz I decided not to abort and ended up miscarrying. The decision to have a baby is a BIG life changing event, no matter how you slice it. Don't let anyone choose for you...it's all up to you and it's your body and I hope that whatever you choose, that you're okay with it. I wish I could say more and I wish I could hug you cuz it's so scary and confusing to be in the boat you're in.