[mccord89]

I really hate this..

I feel depressed and why is beyond me.

I shouldn't because everything is going pretty good for me, I am finally taking control of my life and getting everything together, and that feeling is amazing.

So why the depression..
The only reason I can think of.. I have all these blood tests and doctors appointments with my gynecologist to see whats going on and I have to wait a couple days every time before I know whats going on.

I have the results for my first blood test and the numbers were 18,000. I had to go back today and have another test done and won't know the results until tomorrow afternoon. Then after the doctor see's those I'll hopefully know what has to be done next. I'm really nervous about calling tomorrow.

But I can't wait to just get it all done, and know whats happening and such.