| Reading this scares me.
I agree that you should stop drinking. I had a heavy drinking problem 2.5 years ago (drinking a litre of vodka every two days). I started having symptoms about 1.5-2 years ago, and it scares me that I might have brought this on myself (I am only prediabetic, so I'm hoping I never actually get a full dx), but since then, it's just not worth it.
You need to sit down and weigh out what's important. Drinking now makes me sick. I'll usually have a glass of wine with food, but if I go outside that mark, I get so ill it's not worth it either.
Good luck...I hope you find out what works for you. | 
