Welcome Georgia

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Good to meet you and nice to see another new person join the forums

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I think part of what makes makes diabetes so hard, is that we can never take a break or forget about it

. Most of us have probably tried at some point, but it's always there , like it or not

. So don't be too hard on yourself...it's not easy. It's common to have "uncontrollable moments"...but as long as you realize that you need to work a little harder and committ to doing so, I think you will be ok. Considering that you are having so many lows, it likely means that your insulin doses need to be revamped a bit. Those lows can be scary, especially if you are going as low as 19. You want to veer on the safe side and get help from your doctor

regarding that.
Good luck... Please know you have us supporting you here and hopefully you will regain control and eventually have that healthy, little baby you want

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Take care!
Andrea