| Of course you feel like **** if you inject insulin. Your body's got used to being at a high bg level, and so whenever you approach a bg that looks vaguely normal, your body thinks it's having a hypo. So in other words, you've got the worst of both worlds. All that sugar in your blood is basically sandpapering away your body (and will put you in a coma and kill you within 6 months), and now you also feel terrible when you're actually doing something proactive.
Now, this isn't going to be a flame. I'm just going to be firm with you because you really need someone to be firm with you.
You're in denial. Plain and simple. You don't want to have diabetes and you can't cope with the fact you've got diabetes, so you've chosen to ignore the fact you've got a potentially fatal, life-threatening condition. Now, that's fine. Pretty much everyone who has diabetes has done exactly the same as you and decided to ignore their condition for a bit.
The trick is learning how to get back on track and snap yourself out of this situation. Some people simply don't 'get it' until they've lost a leg and their sight, and you'd better pray that you're mentally strong enough to get it before that happens - and here's how you do it.
Get yourself down to a diabetic clinic. Today, tomorrow. Doesn't matter. Just make sure it's ASAP. Don't bother making an appointment. Just sit in the waiting room. Sit there for a couple of hours. Have a look at the people walking in.
See the guy who can barely walk? That's you next year.
See the person missing a leg? That's you in two years.
See the blind person? That's you in three years.
See the person in a wheelchair who needs to be permenantly attached to an oxygen tank? That's you, buddy, that's your future.
Then walk past a funeral home and have a good look at the caskets. Go and enquire about the costs of them. ****,get yourself measured up for one, buy one while you're there. It stands to reason that the prices of coffins will probably go up within the next four years, and you're going to need one pretty soon - why not save some money?
Do I sound harsh? Good, because someone really needs to put you in your place. But that person shouldn't be me, or anyone else on this forum. That person should be you.
If you don't want to listen, that's fine. Just don't turn round in a year's time and claim you 'didn't know'.  | 
