Welcome to the forum. When I read your forum I felt like it was me 19 years ago. I still take the doc's praise for a license to go off the wagon for way too long. When I get off, it's hard getting back on.
I am not saying this is good though. I'm saying that some of are easy to put in the denial mod.
First start testing, start a food diet and do anything else that brought you under control before.
I can see how the present season could be a problem to you in Alaska. It is a beautiful state, but that dark time has got to be hard.
Post often. There are very knowledgeable, supportive people on this site. Ask, share, and just tell it how it is.
Welcome again!!
