[sbuff28@charter]

Dude, we are in the exact same situation.

I was diagnosed Jan 5, 2006 and im and also 21 and an avid partier. Its quite weird to read your story and exactly relate and say "**** man, thats me too".

Four weeks ago, i was in a hospital too and the first thing I noticed an off look on the Doctor and my stomach drops. The doc says to me "Diabetes in the family?". My father and i just stared right back at him. I was speechless and my stomach dropped much farther down. Yes im a guy and i cried then, not only for a day strait, but like for a week. It sucks hardcore, I find myself having a very hard time dealing with it at times, and i know what your feelin man. Im really not trying to be arrogent or anything but my number one problem with the disease is that i realise how frigile i really was. I used to think i was invincible and as long as i maintained good health, i could drink all i wanted. Now i know its not so... Im not going to live forever. This scares the Fing CRAPP OUT OF ME! I know get anxious all the time and the disease is still on my mind 24-7(if i should eat, take insulin, ect). Which also bothers the sh!t outta me. My point is simple... I notice im much better off and feeling 100% more positive about my disease than when i was diagnosed.

The main reason for this amotionally and physically is "If its going to make me feel better, so be it" So just last week i was testing 15+ times a day, recording everything i ate, when, what insulin i took, and if i was doing physical activity. All i was doing was trying to understand how i am reacting to my medication. This is the number one soothe to my number one fears about diabetes complications. And working hard at it and maintaining a 80-130 Blood sugar makes me feel so much better about dealing with the disease. Once you realize how good your going to get at copping with it you'll feel soooooo much better about this crappy situation. I still am sometimes scared that im going to get all fed up with all this and die young. But I decided when i started posting here (a week later) that im going to take one day at a time and attempt my best to deal with it. You and I both brotha was delt a ****tay hand, and lost bigtime! its now time to ante up and get on with life with whatever you got left.

So yeah, dont feel bad about testing 6 a day...haha, i STILL test at leat 11 times a day. (and thats if im busy). Im filling up the excel sheet with my records pretty fast and im printing like 7 pages each to my 3 doctors. AND keep im mind im feeling 100% better after doing this.... I may be wrong since i have no experience really with diabetes, but i've read up on it... Its a Big Help to me. So consider it....



So I hope this helps you out a little...stay tough, I was the last person in the world to think anything like this would happen to me. Its not the end of the world though unless you want it to be. It's definatly possible to live a great life still, just ask anyone on this board and i bet they'll tell you they are doing just fine...but its gonna be effort involved.

-Steve