| you guys are right it is definitly very very overwhelming to me the first thing that pops into my head is your gonna die.. Heh i dont know why but it does thats always been me and it terifies me . But i usually get over this stage and thats what im waitting for thanks so much for the support . Iasked my doctor if i can expect my BS being in a lower range like 100 to 110 i been kind of eatting right small meals fruits and veggies and has not dropped from 150 and the highest i seen has been 180 but is it because my weight ? i have not yet begun to excerise i have strep throat and im just getting over that im taking penicilin 4 times a day. but im looking fwd to going this weekend and buhyt some excerise machine a treadmill or something so i can start on that | 
