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Originally posted by WiseWords
Kim,
Are you scared?
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Of course I am scared. It's serious.
My issue is that it's ONLY been two weeks since I bought my blood montor device and took that first test. My last physical was 1 year earlier and all was well. So it seems the diabetes is not over a year old. Serious of course, with those high levels of glucose.
However I am testing, exercising, eating MUCH better and am not drinking wine and beer EVERY NIGHT like I used to do. And I was drinking way to much. I record carbs, calories, fat and protien using Lifescan's Diabetes Managment Software. I have several books on nutrition, diabetes and have already been to one seminar on the subject. I have read all the books in the last 12 days.
I have also purchased some Ketone test strips and all tests for the last week have been negative. My average blood sugar in the first 4 days was 260, next four days was 230 and last four days is 200. However I can make it spike just by eating carbs. I can also make it dive after 30 minutes on the treadmill, which I also bought. So I am taking it very seriously.
My thought is that if I went to the doctor in the last 14 days he/she would say, eat right, test and record your diet, start exercising, then come back in see me in 3 weeks with some data.
I am simply getting the data first is all.
And yes scared about INCOME also, I have my OWN health insurance that I pay for, I run my own company doing something that I can NOT do when offically diagnosed.
I am single, 48 years old and my life sucked before this, likely why I drank to much, ate like ****, was stressed and ended up with this. I have no one to blame but me.
So yes scared again.
Now I have a resume typed, mailed out to about 12 companies and will be selling my business (if anyone will buy it) and then looking for a job for the first time in years.
Yep scared again.
As far as family and close friends, try NONE. Again my own fault and again likely what helped me stay stressed and get diabetes.
So yes scared again, again, again, etc.
Now lastly I just read Dr. Atkins book and in his book he suggested that many doctors think that not enough insulin is being made, when actually too much is being made. I don't really undertand this as yet. But it seems to me that if I show up PREPARED, I am likely to get better advice.
The other issue that I believe is that I need to get my body back down to earth, away from the booze, high carbs, chemically made oils, and all that other poison that I have been eating for 48 years. Time to let the bosy cleans itself before I start trying to give it more chemicals that might confuse it more.
I want to give nature a chance to stabalize the readings before I go using oral meds or insulin.
As far as drinking lots of water and heading for the bathroom alot. I do not drink alot, in fact not enough. I am drinking maybe 2 glasses of water a day, Atkins says drink 8. My feet are not cold, I am not tired all the time, I sleep great, I do to the bathroom maybe 3-4 times a day. My vision has not changed since December 2001. I can not find one symptom I have...and I am six feet tall...yes six feet...and weigh 190 lbs, for my age and height that is in range..I could lose 10 lbs though
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Does this make the high glucose readings go away? Well of course not - the facts are the facts.
However I do plan on giving my body a month to get used to diets, new food, exercise and all the changes before I see a doctor. The ad for the sale of my business is already in a magazine, and my resumes have already been mailed.
All of this since 11/25/2003. So it appears that I am taking this very serious. I strongly believe that after 20 years of eating junk and not excercising that I need 30 days to get the "poisons" out of my system and get "stable" before asking a doctor what to do next.
Scared. You bet. Scared of being alone, old AND sick.
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