[belyro]

Thanks Aaron.

[Mystral]

[quote=princesslinda;171211] I hava a really strong family history of diabetes and my mom died at age 54 (after 26 years of neglect of her disease).

Same exact thing with my dad. He was 54 and NEVER took care of himself. He also had practically every complication of diabetes you can get. I was actually diagnosed 6 months after he passed away. It may be why I had an even harder time with it in the beginning. Oh how I wished (and still do) that I could talk to him about it. I also thought that I would have the exact same fate as him with the complications and all until I was educated a little better. Strange thing is he's not my biological father and here I have diabetes now too!

As for the anxiety, you know that commercial for zoloft with the little white puff who can't join in with the crowd? That's pretty much me exact in public. Completely opposite with the people I know, but it's really starting to bother me when I'm out in the world. I always feel like people are staring at me and judging me though most likely they don't even know I exist! I also go through the feeling guilty all the time though I really have nothing to feel guilty about. It's a horrible feeling and I'm seriously considering trying something like zoloft to see if it helps me in any way. I've been like this for some time now and I'm ready for a change. I'm curious if anxiety causes a hot temper. I've had that alot lately too which is not good at all when I'm at work and dealing with customers. They're very argumentative and I'm beginning to have a VERY hard time not arguing back. I've been reading up on anger management, but I'm not satisfied with what I'm learning. I wish to be more calm and be able to deal with people without freaking out all of the time. But I always feel these people are attacking me personally, which I know is ridiculous. So I think it may be a little of the anger thing and also the anxiety. Probably a dash of low self esteem too.