[belyro]

I have to admit, this thread has taken a much different turn than I expected.

I guess what I was just meaning to say is that it's weird how restrictive freedom can be, but how freeing restraint can be....at least when it comes to diabetes.

But thanks for all your kind words - even though I wasn't expecting them

[moorejames]

As a type ll, I've occassionally been envious of the type l folks on here who eat whatever they want and then correct for it.

I completely understand their way of thinking; that their type l wasn't of their doing and they should be able to be as "normal" as everyone else.

Call it type ll guilt. Since there's a good chance I DID have something to do with my developing type ll, eating well is somewhat of a "penance" for me and quite frankly I sometimes resent it. (and it's quite possible I was genetically pre-disposed to it and would have eventually developed T2 regardless of how I ate or exercised, it certainly runs in my family)

Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't want to be a type l, you guys/gals go through SO much ****, but it bothers me sometimes to hear type l's talking about eating things I can't even CONSIDER touching.

Guess this is just another rant, we all have our burdens.

[issysmommy]

Originally Posted by belyro

it's weird how restrictive freedom can be, but how freeing restraint can be

Wow...well put. I have totally found that this is a disease with a lot of paradoxes. The more you "control" the disease or at least make an effort to deal with it, the less it controls you or you have to deal with it. The more open I am about my disease, the less I am embarrassed about it.

I have always thought about writing a book about the emotional effects of coping with Type 1 since early childhood. We have all been given so many tools to deal with the physical aspects of this disease, but very little help to deal with the emotional aspects. This forum has truly been a HUGE help for me to find support from other diabetics. Kind of like out own little A.A. meeting but for diabetics.

[belyro]

Originally Posted by issysmommy

I have always thought about writing a book about the emotional effects of coping with Type 1 since early childhood. We have all been given so many tools to deal with the physical aspects of this disease, but very little help to deal with the emotional aspects.

I'd buy it!

[grace girl]

I understand what you're saying completely. I spent the first 5 years with D basically being what I call "willingly ignorant". I knew NOTHING about what I was doing, and I really didn't care. Looking back now it amazes me that I didn't end up in the hospital...insulin really isn't a good thing to be on when you aren't paying attention.
But last summer I got committed to learning how to control this thing, and like you, I've found myself making some changes that seem restrictive to some, but they are the best choices for me.
It's all so mental. If you tell me I can't have something, I would probably eat it anyway to prove you wrong, but having decided myself that it's something I shouldn't do right this minute, well, that's another story!

And yes, I, too, have found that restricting myself is very freeing. And that one really took me by suprise.