[soremom]

Mav,

I am glad Collette is doing better for now. After reading your second post, it sounds like you could use an outlet to sort things out too. I hope you consider talking to someone yourself. I am by no means suggest you have the same problems (the depression), but it can be very draining on the other person. For your sake and your wifes, it may be worth talking to someone if for no other reason then to vent your fustrations.

Good luck to both of you and I will keep you both in my thoughts.

Kim

[Collette]

Thanks for the kind words.

Collette is having an assesment for psychotherapy and is already on antidepressants.

Hopefully with time things will get better.

As for me needing someone to talk to, I tend not to worry about my problems, Collette comes first and foremost, I will deal with my issues afterwards but for now I need to concentrate and be strong for Collette.

[soremom]

I am sorry if I offended you, that was not my intention. It just sometimes your feelings can get pushed aside while dealing with your wife and eventually your feelings come out, sometimes not in the best way.

I am talking from experience about pent up feelings and then come back to bite you in the butt. Even if you have a friend to talk to it does make it easier to deal with the problems. I can usually tell when my medical problems are getting to my husband by his actions and words and we talk about them.

That is all I was meaning and I hope I didn't make it sound otherwise. Just want to make sure that you both make it through this.

Kim

[mg_2204]

... I had no idea Collette & her partner were going through such rough times. How wonderful to read from someone who cares so much about the woman in his life! And so refreshing. Many couples just don't care about each other anymore. That, alone, is a blessing, don't you think? To both of you : the very best, hang in there!!!

Marie

[PepsiLvr]

Mav and Collette,

I'm sorry that you were subjected to the comments of the offending member (hopefully no longer a member) Anyway, all I can say is that like others have said, diabetes and depression does go hand in hand. Fortunately this board has helped me a lot. Just knowing that there are so many supportive people out there really makes a difference. I am so much happier now that I have come to this board. Actually, the offending post that you were subjected to is the first of it's kind I've seen here and I would like to think that it will be the last but this is the internet and well... . Anyway, you have every right to be angry and I would be as well. Thank you for coming here to post your feelings / thoughts on the situation. I will be praying that everyone gets the help and care that they deserve.

Again, I wish you a speedy recovery and god bless!!

[lgvincent]

Hope she's feeling better today!

[mav]

oops just realised that my last post was logged in Collettes name.

Soremom.
I have trouble expressing in words how or what I am feeling at the best of times, so dont think for a moment that you have in someway offended me, please do not worry.

Collette has not had the best of days today, I had to work which meant Collette had to find the courage to go into town on her own this morning, she is ok now and seems calm for the moment.

mg_2204
Thank you for your comments. I am totally devoted to Collette, it hurts me so badly to see her suffering, I REALLY wish I could wave a magic wand and take the troubles and the pain away for her, I would even swap places with her if I could.
Call me a soppy git if you will but I love her so much and I really cant stand being away from her even to go to work and especially at a time like this.

[Dewey]

Hi Mav,

I truly hope and pray that everything will get better for you and Collette.

I wouldn't call you soppy, I'd say you're a good man who is caring, loving and deeply devoted to his wife. Sometimes, life can become hard or throw curve balls, and it is not always easy to remain positive. All we can do is try to "stay the course" and look ahead to dreams, goals and where we'd like to be. Please know that you and Collette are in all of our hearts, thoughts and prayers.

Sincerely,
Dewey

[Collette]

Thank you all for your kind words, im sorry ive caused controversy on here, i didnt actually think i would welcome back on here.

Id also like to thankyou for making my husband feel welcome on here.

The past few months have been ****, having my assessment for psychotherapy - which isnt going to begin for at least a year, and the psychiatrist thinks that im strong enough emotionally to manage completely without professional support until then, why wont she listen?! I feel like ive failed.

I feel as though im screaming at the top of my lungs that i cant cope - but no one is hearing me.

Im still trying to get the right antidepressents, which obviously just aint doing alot at the moment, so to cope i still binge on sugar, and i scratch my forehead until it bleeds and carve things on my hand and arm, basically im trying everything i can to cope and to take away the suicidal feelings.

I am not weak, i have tried to sort out my problems myself, but most of them go back to my teens and before.

Thankfully i have the most supportive husband who wants to do anything he can to help.

Again thanks to you all for your support and sorry.

[TAutry]

Collette,

Thank you and Mav for keeping in touch. You have absolutely nothing for which to apologize.

The important thing now is your well-being. It is my sincere hope that you can get the assistance you need and that you will soon be on the road to recovery. Furthermore, know that you and Mav are always welcome here.

Travis Autry

[HeatherP]

I'll second Travis' words, and add a cyber-hug.

Glad you dropped in Collette. It really sounds to me like you need more help, not less. Is there anyway for you or Mav to complain to and request a revision? At the very least it seems to me that you need a psychiatrist to work w/ you to get your meds right. My husband had chronic pain for years and nobody did anything about it. Finally after years and years he found a doc that was willing to listen and give him treatment. I guess I'm saying don't give up - although I realize that's easier said than done.

Take care of yourself,
HeatherP

[soremom]

Collette,

It was good to hear from you.

I don't know how it works for you, insurance and all being in the UK. Is there any way you can go to another dr. to start getting the help that you need and deserve? With my insurance I can go to another Dr. if I am not happy with the one I have.

I hope that this is avaiable to you and are able to get your help sooner. Please keep in touch with us and ask for any help, even if it an ear to bend.

Take care and hugs, P.s. you have a wonderful husband and I am so glad he is standing beside you, lean on him.

Kim

[Collette]

Originally posted by HeatherP
I'll second Travis' words, and add a cyber-hug.

Glad you dropped in Collette. It really sounds to me like you need more help, not less. Is there anyway for you or Mav to complain to and request a revision? At the very least it seems to me that you need a psychiatrist to work w/ you to get your meds right. My husband had chronic pain for years and nobody did anything about it. Finally after years and years he found a doc that was willing to listen and give him treatment. I guess I'm saying don't give up - although I realize that's easier said than done.

Take care of yourself,
HeatherP

Thanks Heather.

Sadly we are too late. Collettes session with the counselor didnt go well today, basically she was told she is wallowing in it and that there was no reason to take the insulin overdose.
It upset Collette badly and she is now in hospital after taking an overdose of pills. Luckily she had the sense to phone me and I was able to get an ambulance to her as I was some 30 miles away at work at the time. I caught up with her at the hospital. That was at 530 this evening and its now 0145am and ive literally just got in and had some food.
I dont feel like it but I have to be up at 6 for work. also ive left a message for the counsellor involved to get in touch with me. She is going to get a peice of my mind and depending on what she has to say for herself she may well find herself being reported to the welfare authority for investigation.

Collette thankfully is going to be ok but I wont know what is happening now until tomorrow.
Im upset, confused, scared and feel utterly alone at the moment.
What do I do now? How do I cope with this? Please someone help me before I lose the one person I love and care so deeply about.
I cant stand this anymore, im at my wits end with worry.

[mav]

Sorry ive done it again, forgot to log Collette out.

Just not thinking straight at the moment.

[soremom]

Mav,

I am so sorry for what is happening to both of you. I would defintely turn the counselor in, I can't believe someone would say that to anybody the is depressed.

I have no idea what to say to as what to do. I am not sure what resources you have over there, here I would say find another dr. or see if the hospital could hold her for a 72 hour hold, just to make sure she doesn't try it again. Also to give you sometime to clear your mind and find some arrangement for Collette to get better help.

You are not alone. I hope by reading every ones post we are here, again if it is only to lend an ear.

I hope you are able to find help for Collette and someone who is a little more qualified. Anyone to give the advice that that person gave is not qualified in my opinion.

You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Kim