Hi - I didn't know I had diabetes until March 1st of this year but I understand what you are saying. I also think back on how bad I was feeling and how much I missed out on because I didn't feel well. I thought it was menopause and just getting older - now I know - it was sugar. I also get upset when my sugar isn't where I want it to be - but it doesn't last long - being upset. You are doing great maintaining an A1C of 6 and you need to let go of the past - what is done is done - can't change it - but you sure can focus on good things in your future and pat yourself on the back daily for working so hard - think of all those who just don't.