[cheryl]

You know I had pink eye in both eyes a couple of weeks ago, since then my vision farsided is blurry, I am completely devastaed by this.....really I am. To make matters worse, I could not make my appointment to see the eye doctor this week, cause we are flat broke, and so, I am gonna have to wait till next week or the following week.

I was supposed to go this month cause nine months ago they found one broken vessel and wanted to make sure that is all it was. But alas, me putting bills and kids and there functions first, I am flat broke as always.

Simply put, I hate having this disease, because it is so hard to think of me when money gets involved, and the kids needs overpass any of mine, I even have felt guilty about having to pick my insulin to pay for over anything we may have needed in the house, like I have had to buy less food, because of it, and I feel like **** about it.

Well this past weekend I picked buying the kids school shoes over paying for a copay for the doctor, and then when I drive especially at night, it is so **** blurry.....My friend in NYC, told me after her pink eye her vision got screwed and she needed glasses, I hate saying it like this but I hope that is all that is wrong with me....

Not that I am saying that anyone deserves to have retinopathy or anything, but I can't afford to have eye problems, I mean seriously......I just can't I hope if I am meant to go thru it, It waits till after I get over this hump of being broke, to show up, if it is meant to be. I am still a little annoyed about my vision, because **** How am i going to even afford glasses for myself and knowing me I'd rather wear contacts.....

I can't deal with me being sick, it is bad enough I got to pay for **** that keeps me alive, but I cannot endure more financial burden on my family because of this **** right now, I am so pissed off, diabetes is not a poor man's illness and I am a poor woman at the moment, Why for the life of me, did this happen, bull****....I hate it........hate it hate it.....seems the better control I am having I got to deal with more **** issue's.........Ugh...

Ok done venting....maybe I'll just borrow the co-pay from my mom....nothing else I can do about it for now....

Cheryl

[shockme]

cheryl- if you can borrow the copay from your mom-i think you should get this checked out asap! (((((hugs))))) trish

[mayapple]

cheryl - I hope you get to see the dr soon. My thoughts are with you.

[ladytaz]

Oh Cheryl!! I'm so sorry you're going through this!! *hugz* I SO totally wish I had some extra $$ right now!! If I did, I'd SO send it to you, so you can get that checked out!!!! Losing sight SO scares the bajeezes outta me!!! If there is someone you can borrow it from, DO IT!!! PLEASE!! Hopefully it's just the pink eye wreaking havoc (that's some NASTAY stuff!! I know, I've had it before!!)

I know EXACTLY how you feel tho!! Me, with no insurance ... I wear glasses, have for just over 20 years now, and for some reason my glasses seem to get broken every couple of years, and of course it's always the FRAMES that break!! GAH! *sigh*

They won't let you get a new pair with a prescription over a year old, so I ALWAYS have to have an eye exam, then have to buy a new pair of frames, AND lenses, cuz you can NEVER find frames to fit your old lenses, even IF you are at the same prescription, and besides, my prescription has always seemed to have changed, so no matter, I need new lenses too *sigh* ... and t's always a $300 affair!! *double sigh*

This last time, I went without proper glasses for over a month (I was "getting by" with a 5 year old pair of glasses (with broken frames, or a broken arm anyway, taped on!! (SO SEXY!! LOL) but at least I could manage on the puter and see to drive during the day, even if they did make my eyes and head hurt), because we absolutely did not have ANY money for it!

As it was, at that time, we were about to lose EVERYTHING, because we were in such a bad financial state, through NO fault of our own. It TOTALLY sucked!! Then add in the costs for me to go to the Doc, have labs done, my meds and supplies. It just weren't a perrty time!

Even though all my kiddos are grown now, I still understand how you are feeling! Even LONG before I had D, I sacrificed, so that my kids could have! I've just always been that way! I've always come LAST! So yea, I TOTALLY understand where you're coming from!! Even still today, I find it difficult to spend money on myself! Though I'm STILL learning to! LOL (AS LONG as we have the extra money!!! Which ain't too often!! )

[peej07]

I'm so with you on this one, keep your fingers crossed.