Lethander
01-08-2007, 10:31 PM
Well as one can expect to see here, I'm new to this forum
Been a Type I for about 8 years here. Been a **** of a rollercoaster ride. Going through a bit of a bad spot right now.
*begin rant*
Numbers have been a combination of on the high side to a spike up spike down for a while now ( more than 6 months) Sometimes a small shot does wonders and other times a larger shot does nothing it seems.
Definatly a hard ride though, Haven't been able to hold a job for over a year for the past 5 years or so (seems bad days creep up and bite me) So that means no medical insurance, so no regular medical care, and scraping and scavaging to afford meds.
Had a hard blow last month attempted to get a state medical card, got sent to a doctor they recommended, and he totally misunderstood my condition. I kinda think since he was in cahoots witht he assistance office it skewed his opinion. He was convinced i was a type 2 and my bad condition was casued by lazyness and a desire to not work, the visit lasted maybe 3 mins and turned out to be a lecture about trying to pull one over on the system. felt so Hmm I dunno betrayed is the closest feeling. Been in a very glum state as of late (its prolly also causing more problems with my numbers i am sure) So now trying my last ditch effort by going through the VA (did 6 years in the Marines). I know with some proper medical aid and adjustments to meds (and help getting meds) i can get back to "normal" or at least hold a job (thats a big mental blow to me I've always worked and have a need to accomplish things)
I've noticed i have lost so much of myself over the past few years..used to be very outgoing, flirtatious, and really enjoyed life, looking back i have lost a lot of that and have become very gunshy, startign to feel like a hermit, or maybe a recluse, I find myself moody which bugs me to no end, always used to be very happy-go-lucky, Meloncholly has definatly stopped in for an extended visit.
*end rant*
But overall I just wanted to stop in, hang out, meet some new people, and gleam some wisdom from those have been and may currently be where i am. So hello to all
Been a Type I for about 8 years here. Been a **** of a rollercoaster ride. Going through a bit of a bad spot right now.
*begin rant*
Numbers have been a combination of on the high side to a spike up spike down for a while now ( more than 6 months) Sometimes a small shot does wonders and other times a larger shot does nothing it seems.
Definatly a hard ride though, Haven't been able to hold a job for over a year for the past 5 years or so (seems bad days creep up and bite me) So that means no medical insurance, so no regular medical care, and scraping and scavaging to afford meds.
Had a hard blow last month attempted to get a state medical card, got sent to a doctor they recommended, and he totally misunderstood my condition. I kinda think since he was in cahoots witht he assistance office it skewed his opinion. He was convinced i was a type 2 and my bad condition was casued by lazyness and a desire to not work, the visit lasted maybe 3 mins and turned out to be a lecture about trying to pull one over on the system. felt so Hmm I dunno betrayed is the closest feeling. Been in a very glum state as of late (its prolly also causing more problems with my numbers i am sure) So now trying my last ditch effort by going through the VA (did 6 years in the Marines). I know with some proper medical aid and adjustments to meds (and help getting meds) i can get back to "normal" or at least hold a job (thats a big mental blow to me I've always worked and have a need to accomplish things)
I've noticed i have lost so much of myself over the past few years..used to be very outgoing, flirtatious, and really enjoyed life, looking back i have lost a lot of that and have become very gunshy, startign to feel like a hermit, or maybe a recluse, I find myself moody which bugs me to no end, always used to be very happy-go-lucky, Meloncholly has definatly stopped in for an extended visit.
*end rant*
But overall I just wanted to stop in, hang out, meet some new people, and gleam some wisdom from those have been and may currently be where i am. So hello to all