Hi all

[T2womanNc]

Hi ya'll .


What a great place you have here. I look forward to learning lot of new stuff.
The only problem I have with aquiring knowlege is that it will make my denial of my diabetes much harder. I know I am the only one on the planet that feels this way.... I hate sticking myself all the time... but I really love the bennifit of losing weight without trying(165 lbs in less than a year as long as I don't regulate my level). (Oh ya... I have discovered the great thing about having a spare tire... I can't feel my injection...) Ok, truthfully the messed up eye sight sucks... having to have 3 pairs of glasses, cuz the changing sugar levels really messes my vision up does nothing for my fashion sense....

My baseline fasting is about 350... So when my insulin works and I get below 200 I really feel crappy... I am trying realy hard to stick with the program this time but.....

[princesslinda]

Welcome T2NC:
I'm sure you'll find a lot of helpful info on this forum. Sounds like you've had a rough time of things....maybe this forum will inspire you to do what you need to do...it sure helps me. Can you give us a little history...how long since you were diagnosed? How long on insulin? Does your doctor keep pretty close tabs on you?

Congrats on the weight loss. I can relate to the struggle. Welcome, make yourself at home, as we say in the south.

[Emm]

Hi! Welcome to DF :)

I'm worried about you already!!
Are you saying that you want to get things in order now?
How long have you been diabetic? How long on insulin? What's your typical routine? Do you see doc / endo / diabetes educator or anyone else along those lines regularly?

Glad you've joined us - this is a great place for info and I bet you'll be feeling heaps better about things real soon. Sometimes it helps just to be surrounded by people who truly understand.

(edit: well it seems Linda beat me to it!)

[T2womanNc]

Ok... I have know for a few years... I just lack commitment...

If I put away the moniter... walla... no numbers to irratate me... if I keep a bottle of insulin in the fridge I can honestly say I have my insulin..... I do not have health insurance so I don't often go to the dr. But my eyesight is going hinky again... I am dangerously moody.... and I can't remember my name half the time... last weeks A1c was 12.5

I get tired of the cost.... they switched up my meds again so I have Lantus 35 units before bed and 8 mgs of avandia ($275 a month) for breakfast and and I am only down to 345 15 min ago.... after a chicken garden salad for lunch at noon...I was on fast acting but the highs and lows were freeking me out take a shot and go from 300 to 30 faster than I can keep track... I felt a couple of time like I was dying....

But what has really got me paying attention is the thought that Early onset alzhimers may infact be type 3 diabetes... I got my diag a while back...
I think that part of me thinks if I am going to be a lump of clay in a few years who cares if I have kidney falure and can't see... but now that there is studys linking the two perhaps if we can figure a way to regulate my insulin leavels there might be hope...

[princesslinda]

Dean T2NC:
Sending a BIG HUG your way right now!!!! With your levels so out of whack, it's no wonder you feel so depressed, confused and bad. You're not going to feel better until you get things under some sort of control...then you'll be AMAZED at how good you can feel! We don't think properly when our blood glucose levels are out of control.

Here some tough love coming your way, please don't take offense.
My mom was a T2 diabetic, diagnosed at age 28. I remember her telling me "I have sugar diabetes, so I'll probably lose my leg, have kidney failure and die young." She ignored the diabetes and that "quality of life" she wanted so badly killed her at age 54, leaving behind a husband, 2 daughters and a 5 year old grandson and an 18 month old granddaughter...AFTER losing her leg, having a heart attack, almost going blind and finally getting renal failure. All because she had such a fatalistic attitude that it kept her from seeking help.

I'm sure that having no insurance makes things so difficult for you. You should go to online and find the website for the company that makes your medications and most have a program for the uninsured. I would also go to the Health Dept. and see if they could put you in touch with someone locally who could help you. Also, if you are in a local church, talk with the pastor and maybe they can do something to help you. Above all, GET HELP! You deserve to feel better.

I hope you have some family members who are supporting you through all this. It is scary to have diabetes, scary to see high numbers, i'm sure it's scary to have to inject all the time and i'm sure its BEYOND scary to see complications arising. Scarier still, would be not doing anything and just letting diabetes win without a fight. It may add years to your life.

You are NOT ALONE!!!!!!!!! I urge you to take whatever steps are necessary to help you feel good again. Please keep us posted on what's going on.

[notme]

Hi T2, I totally understand your post. I disagree with your thought process now, but I understand it completely. No, you are not alone in your thought process.

That being said, you are doing so much damage to your body it scares me. Now I know you hear that all of the time and you don't think much about it. You can't see the damage after all. Many people smoke. They think that lung cancer gets other people. They don't really "see" the damage they are doing to their lungs, so they continue to smoke. Alcoholics are the same. They are damaging their liver, but they don't see the damage so it won't happen to them, it will happen to everyone else. I know you didn't ask for diabetes, but you have it. What you do with yourself now is your choice. Losing weight without trying is a wonderful benefit. I am sure someone with lung cancer would give anything to have the precious weight that you have lost.

I don't mean to be mean. I was exactly the same as you when I was diagnosed. I didn't want to gain the weight back. I didn't feel so bad when my blood sugar was 350 (except I was a bit tired). I put up with my doctor yelling at me for my lousy A1c, or I just didn't go. I still have some of those issues. But, you are damaging every fiber of your being. Your eyes, your kidneys, your liver, your heart, your nerves, EVERYTHING. Once you do the damage, you can't take it back. Please take control now and don't let diabetes take another precious life. Your family needs you to be healthy and strong. It is much easier to be lazy about diabetes and much tougher to take control.

You have found a good site here and lots of people who will help you gain control. I know insurance is a huge issue for you. I struggle with paying my bills sometimes also as do many here. But if you read, you will find that many spend every dime they have trying to stay healthy. I hope you find the support you need to get on track. My guess is, you want to because you are here. Welcome to the forums. We all care about each other and certainly care about you. Your post resonates with many of us, and we come here a lot to try and figure out the best way to live a normal healthy life.

Good luck! I wish you the best.

[kgm0612]

HI & Welcome T2NC. We're happy you found us!

The sooner you take the bull by the horns, the sooner you're going to start feeling better. We're here to help with support & encouragement, so don't be afraid to post and ask questions. You are not alone in this!

Karen

[T2womanNc]

Well I am certainly glad I found this forum. I was previously in the medical field... Long term care... I saw the results of not taking care of ones self. But I think my desire to pretend it is not happening to me overides my good sense and education. I currently work for a church and I have many good people supporting me. Still it helps to have a support group of people going thru the same thing. People who understand.

I admit that I am the only one who can do this, but it would be so much easier if it was like a flu where I could take a couple of weeks worth of meds and it all be over. I get real slack after a couple of weeks. The scary thing is I have expericences some serious effects. Nurapathy in fingers and feet... I snap to... then when I get better back I go off the meds... I really want to stick with it this time....

[gettingby]

Hi and Welcome to the forums. Nice to see another one from NC on here. :)
Have no fear, we will help you get to where you need to be.

[notme]

Were glad too. Keep us up to speed on how you are doing and ask all the questions you want!

Glad you are here.

[MJM]

Hi T2 and welcome. I think everyone else has said what I wanted to say so I'll just empathise with what they say and add that if you control your diabetes you will have a fairly normal life. If you don't you will have nothing but trouble. It's only you who can decide which road you want to travel but if you don't take your meds and follow the correct advise, well!!!! Go and fight this disease and who knows the benefits that you will achieve and the enjoyment you will get out of life. So it's down to you T2. You'll get support from everyone here. Take the right road starting today.

[T2womanNc]

Thanks for all your warm words. so far in just cruzing the forum I find a lot of like minded people. I think one of the things I find for myself is that because I have type 2 I have not really seen it as serious as type 1. Kinda like in the back of my mind it's not really that bad. because i think at some point I won't have to take the insulin and meds.... I realize now that my desease is for real and wishing nor praying will make it go away.....

Be blessed all...