Diabetes making me depressed

[roxy909]

I'm feeling really down right now.
and feeling like this has ruind my life.
i know, things could be alot worse, and i greatful that they arnt. and i know, many many people suffer from it.
but its making me so depressed.

my days are so controled by what i eat. i used to be a very fussy eater, and i never ate heathy, probly why i have it.
and now all i can eat are healthy things. with a few treats now n then.

The nurses say they are experementing with my insolin at the moment, they dont really know how much i need, they are just adjusting it unit by unit dependant on my BS scores. They are always really high, so im in no position to have a hypo. and my machine is always flashing Ketones :(

I have a boyfriend that lives about 20 miles away, and i would drive down and see him everynight.
but ive now been told that i cant drive for at least 6 months :mad: so i'l hardly see him, seen as he doesnt drive.
i know there is public transport, but i have a emetophobia and hate going on busses expecially at night, if there are drunks on. and having that phobia didnt help when i was vomiting b4 i was diagnosed. and now im scared all the time thinking im gonna be sick cos of the Ketones.

My mum is treating me like im a kid again, always shouting at me, telling me i cant eat that, or that i cant go out.
so ive been spending my days cooped up in my bedroom, bored out of my scull, and its driving me crazy :( i know shes only doing it cos she cares, but shes making me more depressed than i need to be.

im probly just feeling sorry for myself.
but i feel like its just ruind everything for me, it will take alot of time to get used to things.
I just really want someone to talk to.
i feel so icolated.

[kel4han]

If you are newly diagnosed this is completely normal, heck, you will even have days(or weeks) you feel like this after you have been dealing with the disease for many many years. It is a part of the grieving process. Some of us are not as accepting to change either, which really accentuates the coping. But, you are not alone, and by you being here (DF) you will learn so much, gain confidence and have the support you need to feel you can take this on. Everyone here is very supportive. Right now its hard to hear that things will get better, but time will heal and you will change your lifestyle to accomadate this disease. It is soooo overwhelming in the beginning. Being here will help that.

[hadi_1975]

Yes, it's absolutely normal. I recommend that you do 2 things: 1st talk to someone you trust. this will pretty much help to feel better and the 2nd one is exercising. exercise has a proven anti-depressant effect and at the same time helps you to better control your BG.

[chinku]

Hi Roxy,

I have been dxed recently too.... jan of this year with Type1.
Trust me I am still adjusting myself to this NEW Life, I almost cried everyday for first two weeks :eek: :eek: :eek: and My blood sugar used to be very high initially and always thought like you (abt Ketones and loosing a leg or going blind kind of stuff :T :T :T ).

After almost a month and half now by BG leves r more controlled (I know how much to take for kind of food I take now). My BG levels r in the range of 100-180 now.

You will be fine too in may be couple of weeks (some take less time and some longer), My sincere suggestion is always hope for the best and keep ur self busy with exercise or listen to music (what ever u like).

The more people start to care abt u the more u feel bad. So, be strong and let them know that u can take care of ur self (I mean in a good way, becoz u r lucky to have some one taking care of u)

The point is keep urself BUSY, experiment with the food ,maintain Logs....on how ur BG levels are reacting to the food and soon u'll learn how to control it.

Wish u all the best.

CHEER UP and be BRAVE,
CHINKU,
Type 1 sice Jan 2007.

[LancetChick]

You need to learn about insulin management and take this whole thing into your own hands, in my opinion. There's a very good book called Using Insulin by John Walsh that lays it all out in plain language (if you're American, anyway). Once you get your insulin regimen sorted out, you should be able to drive, work, eat pretty much anything at any time and exercise like you used to do, all while maintaining tight control. It's not easy to learn, but it is possible. Heck, I'm still learning after having type 1 for 20 years, but I live the way I did before getting this disease, except that now my insulin comes from the pharmacy. Knowledge is power and freedom when it comes to managing diabetes, and do not for a minute assume that your doctors are in any way the best people to give you that knowledge.

[Chris Graham]

I was dx in May. It really does get better...hang in there. I agree with previous posters...devour as much info as you can right now. You have to be your own advocate.

At first, so many foods seem off limits. In time you'll learn how to handle the foods you want to eat...albeit with some modification like portion control, etc.

In the meantime, it sound like you could benefit from some exercise. It will help bring your numbers down and will help to blow off some steam as well. Plus it is something to do when you are bored.

[retts1]

Hey Roxy909 I feel exactly the same way. With not being able to drive and all. I met I guy yesterday at a meet and greet thing that we had for a ski trip that we planned and he had been Diabetic for years. He really cheared me up about, being diabet doesnt mean that your life is over.

[MJM]

Roxy,
I'm sorry to hear you are so down at the moment. This is the old 'elder lemon' speaking here. I've had diabetes for 48 years and it never stopped me doing what I loved doing. What I loved was sport and I played many sports and never let it get in my way. And it never did.
It's your diabetes and it's a big challenge that you have to conquer. It's up to you and always will be. What happens depends on how much you're prepared to put the effort in to remain within recommended guidelines. So starting out I would say to you 'take the challenge by the horns and control it rather than letting it control you.
It won't be easy but as you progress it will get easier. Study everything you can about it as the more you know the easier it is to keep within your target range.
The fact that you didn't eat healthily isn't the reason you have diabetes. There is the fact however that the healthier you eat the better you will feel.
There is no reason whatsoever that you shouldn't enjoy life. You can enjoy it as much as anyone else and probably better than most.
You've joined a good site here and this will fill you in on a lot of info that you won't find anywhere else.
If you have any questions all you have to do is ask and an answer should ensue. There is also a chat room here if it interests you.
It's tough on you with your boyfriend. Could you get him perhaps to take the bus and call on you. I wish you well Roxy and hope everything works out for you.

[am1977]

Hey, I think we've all been there- or at least, most of us know what it's like. I was diagnosed over 4.5 years ago, but I'm still going through the grieving process. I guess there's really no time line for how you go through those stages :rolleyes:.

Anyway, I know it probably feels very overwhelming and unfair (and it is!), but it will get a little better each day. You will learn as you go along and you will get into a routine. Plus, keep in mind that you aren't alone- there are many, many out there who feel just like you... Many on this forum can relate to what you are experiencing. I find it helps to come here and vent or just post, b/c usually there is someone who can help and offer support and understanding.

Hang in there :smile: