this freakin bites

[cheryl]

I suck my body sucks, the whole world sucks grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..........I have had it up to here with this machine, she is not being very nice to me at all, she is obviously quite pissed off at me, or what.....

I have been a slow rise since a few days ago, but what does one do........confused yes, very extremely, I mean I know what is causing this, but today, I feel fine emotionally can stress affect you days and days later......

Ok, so this morning my bg was 130 first of all I didn't like this I took an extra unit along with a normal bolus, waited 45 minutes to eat breakfast, so I do, the only mistake i made I didnt check it inbetween breakfast and lunch......so lunch time got my food sitting down thinking i am going to eat fast and go to the grocery store, ok well my machine tells me 221, great take a correction again along with my normal dose and wait wait check 15 minutes later 223..........I can't sit here all day waiting for my **** bg to cooperate, but if I run to the store, I might go low, ****............

I was running in the mid 100's and a bit yesterday, but I was upset about my job situation and then some personal issue's arrived, i got bad on two seperate occasions' that my whole body was shaking and I had to sit in a bath last night skip dinner cause i didn't want to deal with all the correction bs. and went to sleep. I hate this I really do, everyday that I have been wanting to wake up to a better day something else has to hit me........grrrr mad pissy don't like it, you know what I am gonna wake up in a bad mood tomorrow maybe I'll have a better day, Life doesn't seem to like when I am happy

Cheryl

[cheryl]

Ok so would any of you up the basal, cause I think that might be the problem too, but then when do i know when the stress goes away, omg, this is torture.......see I wouldn't be so nervous on the pump flippin Lantus, I am stuck with my decision all darn day........I give up you know I am handcuffing myself to the chair at my endo's office until he signs or gets me arrested

Cheryl

[ladytaz]

*hugz* Just take it ONE day at a time Cheryl!! We ALL have those kinda days, weeks and even sometimes months!!

Close your eyes, take a DEEP breath, and imagine some place REALLY nice and realxing! Put a smile on your face, and tell yourself this IS gonna be a good day after all!!

Ok, doesn't always work, but for a few minutes you'll feel better anyway!! ;) Rinse and repeat?? *giggles* Seriously tho ... feel better hun!! It's GOT to get better, cuz it surely can't get much worse!! ;)

I know .... I'm RIGHT there with ya!! I keep thinking the bottom can't fall out anymore/any farther, and then it does yet again :( ... I (we) can only do what I (we) can possibly do and no more than that! ;)

[cheryl]

I know I don't want to sound like a broken record, but I woke up fine today........omg, so stress affect me slowly and peaks when i wake up happy ummmm..........oh well......we I ate the darn sandwhich anyway...........at a bg of 172 i am just gonna wait 20 minutes go to the store pick up my step kids and check the bg if I am high more insulin cause I am not skippin dinner tonight....

Thanks girl, I just want to crawl under a rock lol

Cheryl

[ladytaz]

Yea, I know things can go all whacky for no known reason! I'm new to the insulin thing, and altho I am T2, I still have some of the same probs. Luckily I respond to the insulin pretty well! If I run high, I just take how ever many units of R I need, and in a couple hours all's usually well again. Just do what you said ... go to the store, get the kids, come home, check again, correct if needed, and RELAX girl .... RELAX!!! ;)

[cheryl]

I am about to leave in 5 minutes but it went down to 130 so if i decided to drop i am bringing a coke with me to be on the safe side and all but i doubt i'll plummit too too low.....

Cheryl

[ladytaz]

YaY!! Good Deal!! Yep, take the Coke with ya, just incase ;)

[KritterMom]

I'm sorry Cheryl, sounds like you are really struggling. My body does this type of thing to me on a regular basis, so I've learned to kind of roll with the punches. Stress really messes me up too. I have to practice staying calm, lol. I know, hard to do. Hang in there!:)

[andypoo]

I'm with you Cheryl,take it easy ,I go through this,too. You have to take a deep breath and chill,because stress will do a number on you.It'll control you if you don't kick back and relax.Everything will work out for you just get your concentration under control. You'll know what to do in a matter of time. Hang in there,girl.

[cheryl]

Ok I am back but not for long got dinner to cook boyscouts tonight, just finished hw with the kids, now I am letting them enjoy outside for the time being, Ok I got home back up to 165 grrrrrrr.....so i took another 2 units.....wow, I cannot seem to put my finger on why it is so bad today, I honestly really was not stressed out at all this morning kind of being quite pleasant, yesterday I can see today I guess it is the kick backs from yesterday.....cause I made a confrontation with someone I was not comfortable to do, so the body was a shaking like crazy and omg to admit what has bothered me for two years is kind of rough.....I thought I was gonna have a massive heartattack, today was good it was off my chest and I was fine, then boom baam the high sugar at lunch grrrrrrrr......and what sucks more is the endo I do see says I should only test four times a day, how the **** would i catch these things then, and like I didn't test between breakfast and lunch and that 200 could of so been avoided, i can't believe the nerve of dr's dumb, but thank god the neighbor gave me 1500 test strips and I continue to fill my scripts so i have an abudant supply ok rambling again


Thanks guys I think I need to move away to a far off land maybe then i'll have good bg's avoiding inlaw's and my hubby's ex wife yay, than I'll live forever.

Got to go cook and do my mommy thang

Cheryl

[ladytaz]

In laws and ex's .... they'll do it to ya EVERY time!! LOL ;)

... when my kids were little, I threatened OFTEN to run away, and that I was gonna change my name from Mommy too, and not tell them what it was, so when they hollered for me, I wouldn't answer, cuz well, Mommy was not my name anymore!! LOL

[KritterMom]

She said she had to go cook boyscouts, lol. Kinda skeery!!!

[ladytaz]

She said she had to go cook boyscouts, lol. Kinda skeery!!!
LOLOL Freudian Slip maybe, no? *giggles*

[cheryl]

omg, i so have to remember my comma's hahhahaha

on a good note bg is now 78 yay................maybe I am going back down,,,,ughhhh after a correction then dinner....and then walking in a plant for these whatever it is called, for a boyscout meeting, probably helped, oh thank goodness......

Cheryl

[ladytaz]

wonderful Cheryl!! :)

[gettingby]

Hang in there Cheryl. I, too, have days like that.

[cheryl]

Hang in there Cheryl. I, too, have days like that.

oh i am and i am killing my endo if he doesn't sign the prescription this time for the pump, I have to fudge my numbers a bit, cause he didn't want to see any low's bad yes, but desperate I am.

One thing if he don't sign your gonna see

PATIENT KILLS DOCTOR FOR NOT GIVING HER A PUMP

It will be on cnn so look out for it thursday night if no one here's from me lol

Cheryl

[andypoo]

In laws and ex's .... they'll do it to ya EVERY time!! LOL ;)

... when my kids were little, I threatened OFTEN to run away, and that I was gonna change my name from Mommy too, and not tell them what it was, so when they hollered for me, I wouldn't answer, cuz well, Mommy was not my name anymore!! LOL

Ladytaz, Oh my gosh that is hilarious! Ha!Ha!

[andypoo]

She said she had to go cook boyscouts, lol. Kinda skeery!!!

That is..... veery skeery! Cheryl ( I'M REACHING OUT!!!!) DO NOT!!! I REPEAT! DO NOT COOK THE BOY SCOUTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!