I hate this!

[Wildbill]

I have been treating my diabetes for 12 years and every once in a while I get such a strong feeling that I just hate diabetes. My lovely bride, Sally, is also diabetic and she hates it more than I do.

So the question is, when you start feeling like that do you go for tighter control or would it make more sense to play like diabetes isn't part of life for a day or two? I mean like just forget the carbs, fats, but still take whatever meds and test to make sure things weren't getting too far out of control?

Wildbill:cool:

[JediSkipdogg]

I personally find it easier to just control it as much as you can. I still run high on occasion and also go low and I never let it get to me. If I find I'm running 300, I correct, and continue on. I'll test an hour later to see if the correction worked, but I don't drag on about it or cancel all plans for that evening as I drop down.

We do have a life outside of diabetes and we can't let diabetes control out lives. If we do, then we will just die younger from the stress it causes again letting it win. I believe we should NEVER let diabetes win at anything.

[xMenace]

Ya, but every once in awhile I do let loose. Not long ago I devoured half a 16" pizza and chased it with a double fudge brownie and a couple of beers.

[JediSkipdogg]

Ya, but every once in awhile I do let loose. Not long ago I devoured half a 16" pizza and chased it with a double fudge brownie and a couple of beers.

Only half? I betcha Gangrel would have gone for the whole thing. I can eat a full 12" pizza by myself.

[Wildbill]

But diabetes actually does control our lives. No doubt about that.

I do agree that occasionally we need to break away and just live as though we aren't controlled by diabetes.

Do you, or others here, once in a while just hate diabetes and go off the reservation...so to speak? And then get depressed because the meter tells you that things aren't very well managed? I just hate that! But I do it anyway.

Then I get very compulsive about regaining control. Seems to be a cycle for Sally and me. She hates diabetes so much that she gets into a denial mode and her HbA1c gets up to 10+ Then she gets worried and manages very well for a while and then the cycle starts again. Is that common?

[Who?]

Some diabetics fight diabetes, others fight themselves.

I prefer to be in the former group.

[mg_2204]

I get such a strong feeling that I just hate diabetes. My lovely bride, Sally, is also diabetic and she hates it more than I do.

I hate diabetes. With a passion. It's a stupid disease. I hate it so much I won't let it control and destroy my life. I hate it so much I'm going to do all it takes to stay healthy and happy, and complication free. And you know what? I hate diabetes so much that... I'm going to have the upper hand. Take that diabetes!!! :boxing:

[Wildbill]

That's a cool attitude! I really like that. Thanks!

[xMenace]

Only half? I betcha Gangrel would have gone for the whole thing. I can eat a full 12" pizza by myself.

I bolused 50 units, I think my biggest dose ever, and I never went above 7.7!

[Keezheekoni]

The better control I'm in, the less I feel like a diabetic. I use my pump, check my bgs and that's it. Nothing more, nothing less and it's second nature... Some people count calories, some count points.... I count carbs. No big deal.

Of course, I try to do anything to stay positive when 350 days out of the year are overcast and gloomy where I live...

[darsie9]

I'm type 2 and diagnosed less than a year. I'm still in denial!
I hate being roped in by this ****** disease!
Sad to say, it runs on both sides of my family. I was the first of my siblings to be dx.
A month ago...my baby sister was dx. My other sister...is borderline now....so far, my older brothers are ok.
I see a nutritionist once a week and work out 3 times a week.
I'm on a low fat/carb diet and have to eat something every 2 hours.(that's ruff)...but it's 3 meals and 3 snacks a day...I'm in a continually fat burning mode.
Believe it or not...it's got my BG back in normal ranges and my HBA1c back down to 5.8...from 6.8!
I'm on Metformin and it's working really well....so far!
I too refuse to let this ******disease rule my life!
I worked in a Dialysis Clinic and I saw the affects of Diabetes!
I swear....I will never let this get me to the point where I'd have to have that done to me!

[ant hill]

If this is a whinge post then so be it. Diabetes for me is confusing and continuous understanding and control is the jewel in the crown so to speak. But then we all have our break and go on a limb and be ourselves.
We all like food that we have to shun from time to time as for me the pizza and beer can not stay too long outside of me. :T And then bolus hard for it or the super bolus that i have learned from here and caryon to enjoy life.
So now today i have had a stroke and blind in my right eye and have had this disease for 36 years and think of control. You try hard enough to achieve good BG and yet i get to have complications. So diabetes is a real kick in the head for me. :confused: :(

[SueM]

I think in a way I was lucky by being diagnosed as a young child, so have grown up with my diabetes thus know no difference.
I use my meter as a tool and nothing else.
Life is far too short to dwell on diabetes and hating it.
It is just there and delt with takes all of 20 mins of my day in total.
Relax and enjoy life and your numbers will come down too if you stress less.

[June91]

Sorry, :topic:

I bolused 50 units, I think my biggest dose ever, and I never went above 7.7!

It's not how high you went that's amazing, it's that you never went low!

Was this in a single bolus? :eek: I love my carbs, but I admit I would be too worried about the river of insulin rushing through my body to actually enjoy that meal.

[bryan42]

:hypocrite I eat PERFECT all week, until Friday night dinner,
then:evil: I eat whatever I want JUST for that meal. Its a nice reward for eating good all week. My after binge numbers on Friday range from 130 to 150,in case your wondering :D

[ant hill]

:hypocrite I eat PERFECT all week, until Friday night dinner,
then:evil: I eat whatever I want JUST for that meal. Its a nice reward for eating good all week. My after binge numbers on Friday range from 130 to 150,in case your wondering :D

God i love that attitude!!! So good on ya!! Gee, i have seen just about every dietitian in my country (Australia) to tell me "this is what you should do" scenario and now it seems like a broken record repeating it's self but then i find it's all not just the diet, It's the exercise that you have to implement to make it work. So if you are fat like me go and ride a bike!!! :thrasher: :o

[shockme]

ya gotta "break free" sometimes!in fact,i told my dr. yesterday that sometimes i will eat something"bad" and that sometimes when we get food from a local restaurant i write"?" for the carbs in my log.[i have carb books-but face it sometimes it's not in the books]she said that it's ok to do that,as long as it's not all the time,or i do it when my bgs a bit high.my advice wildbill-go for it-be "bad"once in a while.it happens that we hate our d sometimes-why wouldn't we?but hate it for a while and move on!trish

[shabbie6247]

thats it.......... i must be a freak!
am i the only one who doesnt actually despise being diabetic?
i have only been diagnosed one whole year, but i felt so ill for about 5 years before that i'm thrilled to feel so well again now!

[gettingby]

I have been a type1 for almost 23 years now. I wish I weren't diabetic but hey, you play the cards you are dealt in life.
I don't dwell on the "bad" numbers. A bad number shows up, ok, figure out what went wrong and fix it. Simple as that.
I don't deny myself anything because of diabetes. I don't let it rule me. I try to rule it !!!!!!:D
That being said, let loose every once in a while.:D

[princesslinda]

WildBill, I think every diabetic can relate to what you're going through. Having diabetes sucks! Having to think about diabetes daily sucks squared! It's hard to constantly watch what you eat and wonder what its doing to you. I know sometimes i'd like to say "To HE!! with it and eat what I want, consequences be ****ed! However, what I would like to do and what I actually do are two different things. You've been dealing with diabetes a lot longer than me, so I can't imagine how i'll feel 12 years down the road...hopefully, I can keep going as I am now.

My mom was a T2 diabetic from age 28. She never acted like a diabetic, always ate what she wanted, just took her daily pill. She had her leg amputated in her late 40's and died at 54 with renal failure.

When I want to pretend I don't have diabetes, I think of her, the non-healing ulcer on her toe and what she went through before her death from renal failure.

I have on occasion had something I shouldn't....usually if I know i'm going to have a treat, I eat very low carb for a couple of days before and get my blood sugar to a lower level. I then decide what it is I want, and will usually have this "treat" for a weekend lunch....after which I get extra exercise...then, I am very, very good afterwards. More often than not, if I want something bad, hubby will order it and i'll allow myself a bite or two...they say the first two bites are the most flavorful anyway and I feel i've had something special. Sometimes, we'll split a dessert, him having the biggest part of it. I also test during these times, so i'll know just what's going on bood-sugar wise. I know it sounds neurotic, certainly not very fun, but it's what I have found works for me. I definitely wouldn't advise anyone to have several days of non-diabetic eating.