I feel like I'm gonna snap.....

[peej07]

Any of you long timers out there with complications ever get so burned out that you feel like your going to lose it? I mean I've been in pretty good health up until this april when I had a hemorage in my left eye and of course that's my dominate eye. I had my laser treatment and then started with severe anxiety so I was put on cymbalta. Life was peach, I felt great my eye was healing, my marriage was good, cool ! In late July I noticed my vision was getting burry and doubled at far distances. After some research I thought it might be the cymbalta so my Dr took me off which made me misserable again. Now they think that my brain is trying "look" around the spot in my left eye which is giving me a doubled image. I just feel so burned out after the last few months of this roller coaster of emotions! Grrrrrrrrrrr I guess I wanted to know how the rest of you have worked through these issues. I'm just soooo annoyed with this ****!:mad: :( :eek:

[Dan Gato]

Hi PeeJ,

Hang in there, expect things to get better.
We all pass thru some down times.

Be optimistic.

[ant hill]

I'm just soooo annoyed with this ****!:mad: :( :eek:

Gee I feel for you, I have been on this disease for 36 years and you need a good and constant control!!! and that is paramount!!!!. I have complications for the last ten years and recently had a stroke. :mad: This freaked me out and also lost sight in my right eye as the retina is not seem to be damaged but it's like looking in a glass onion. The left eye is good and hope that it stays that way for a long time to come. :(
If i were you, I'd look at the control and understand how it can be archived. Go to an endo than a doctor, As doctors are general practitioners as they look at everything in general. :)
Endo's are a specialist in diabetes control!!! :T

[KickStart101]

I'm sorry to hear that you have been going through
that. It's never a Good time.
I actually suffered from burn-out just this past March.
I couldn't take being in the City(that I love), being in
the state of mind that I was in. I couldn't even stand
to be on the computer which I normally enjoy. It was
really rough and definitely, NOT me. I also hurt some-
one that I happen to like. I did apologize and I hope
that he's okay by me.

Whatever complications I had years ago were fixed
back then. My burn-out was more from a build-up
of Life-happenings. Some that weren't Good. Granted,
the continual care of Diabetes and my other diseases
didn't help any plus I had an unrelated health issue going
on.

I just had to get away for a while to look after ME and
to reflect.
I know it's hard sometimes but if you are able to, I
would suggest that you do the same. It doesn't have
to be for too long. A few days maybe. You'd be surprised
how it can bring your Life, your Health and your Mind back
around to where you are supposed to be. Good Luck with
your eye and your burn-out.

[peej07]

Thanks guys as I've stated in other posts I've still yet to find that happy medium with control and living my life the way
I want to. This has put a major strain on alot of my relationships over the last couple of months, I drive my wife crazy and I push friends away. I need to get a handle on this soon before the winter months hit and the snow rolls in.

[BriOnH]

Yes. There have been many times I felt like I am going to loose it, big time, phsyco ward style, due to diabetes and diabetic problems, or just other problems on top of worrying if I am going to have an insulin reaction or hyperglycemia at the same time.

Meds help, insulin saves us; For me God has helped me the most. Hope I am helping him.

[KickStart101]

Hey Peej:

I'm sorry, I guess the little gettaway I was
speaking of may not help a lot since your
sugars are not in control.

Your basals need to be right for you. If you
and your Doc can't get the right doseage for
your Lifestyle then maybe Cyborg(Michael),
XMenace(John) or Duck, etc. could help you
if you tell them all Your Specifics. Control is
Ultimate!!

Sorry, I choose Not to be on the pump for MY
reasons, so I can't Help you there. Good Luck
Hun!! ;)

[VinceF]

I try to talk it out with the people who mean the most to me. I also had a brief stint on a tricyclic antidepressant (for neuropathy) but it also had mood elevation benefits. When I really feel low realizing that there are others much worse off than me helps. I'm not saying that makes me feel better It makes me realize I could be much worse and things really aren't that bad. Hang in there. I hope this helps

[cheryl]

I am so sorry your having to go thru all this. I really am. Life will get better, just keep ranting post your fears up, anything......it feels good to let it out, have a good cry.

I sit back and think of all that I have and should be thankful for even though it is so hard when you feel like you hit rock bottom, I still try....and it works. Then I put my thought and energy in helping someone else so it keeps my mind off me and my problems, and it helps.....

I feel like if I give then the goodness I feel inside overpowers anything I may go thru.....just a thought, I deal with anxiety, so I had to really focus on not thinking about the what if's I kind of refused med's myself, I just didn't want to take any, so the focus then came to being thankful, helping people doing good, and it so helps.....

Good luck and hang in there we are here for you....

Cheryl

[xMenace]

Yes of course. :nurse:

[shockme]

i'm sorry you're going thru this peej! ((((HUGS)))) trish

[Littlebit63_99]

Ahhhh, you poor thing! I went thru that for years. Do you sleep well at night? Because being ill can make you tired and if you are not sleeping then it just gets worse. If you are sleeping well then, do you have somebody to bounce your feelings off of? Do you pray? Do you exercise? Do you listen to music? Do you and your husband have "Dates"? These are all things that will help. Nothing will make it go away. But, you can escape for moments with these. Remember to smell the rosesl
And, I hate to say it, but smile, just smile. Keep in mind that only "happy cells" heal. If you are down.......it will deter your healing process.

[peej07]

I really do appreciate all the support. I'm soooo frustrated with this waiting game with my eye. I was told that the blood from the hemorage I had 3 months ago has worked it's way between the gel and my retina and is causing traction on my centeral vision. I have a blurry line directly through my main line of sight which is making things very difficult for me. The retina specialist wants to wait and watch it. I'm not sure what to expect. It moves and changes all the time, one minute I can see clear as a bell and the next I can't read an e-mail. On top of the anxiety I've never had alot of patince which just adds to my problems. I know in the end this will all work out from reading what some of you guys have gone through. It just angers me, I'm in good control (6.1a1c), BP 122/72, I may be 10lbs over wieght and need to exercise more but I really try to take care of myself.