Severly Depressed: Suicidal Thoughts

[odp1979]

My wife just reprimanded me for calling her and texting her how I feel. She basically told me that she was too busy right now.

[Eddy]

My wife just reprimanded me for calling her and texting her how I feel. She basically told me that she was too busy right now.


Ouch. Blood sugar levels/fluctuations, medications, and just the stress certainly can do a number on one's thinking. Having support can be important.

You have an empathetic audience on here... want to start by blowing off steam, saying what's up, telling lame jokes, or just whatever "works"?

[Jan B]

Please let it out to us ok? Whatever you can. Sometimes our spouse isn't really the best one to express to & since she is "too busy" right now -- tell us what's going on in your head, ok? We are here to help. I've gotten a lot of help here, and so have many others.

Just write whatever you feel . . . .

[Penny]

ODP, because I have a Bipolar daughter, I understand what you are going through....I think. Please ask someone else for help. We are limited talking to you through the forum. We do care though, I care. If you just want to talk, you can send a PM.

[Dimes]

I'd say forget about your wife right now. Do what is necessary to take care of yourself. Don't rely on her, because you could be setting yourself up for disappointment. Good luck brother.

[Keezheekoni]

Do you have a good friend that you can call when you're feeling this way? If not, maybe your parents?

I drop everything when my husband needs to talk, but I know that everyone is different...some people can't handle dealing with someone else's feelings.

I'm a good listener and have given advice on a suicide prevention line before. Post again and let us know how you're doing! We also have a chat room here, jump in there and I'm sure that someone will come in that you can talk with...

Is in nice out in the area you live in? Go take a walk around a park. Go enjoy the sun! If it's not nice, go to a bookstore and get lost in a book! :D If you feel the need for destruction, go out in your yard and pull weeds (of course, that wouldn't work for me since I hate yardwork! Ha!) Or, do what I tell my kids to do...go beat up your pillow! I just looked at your profile...take your kids to the park and watch them play, that's one of the things I do for myself when feeling down. Watching the joy on little one's faces is surely a pick-me-up... Then go for ice cream with them!

But definitely find someone to talk to...if not in your real-life, here in the forums. :)

:knuddel: Feel better!

[Jan B]

Please let it out to us ok? Whatever you can. Sometimes our spouse isn't really the best one to express to & since she is "too busy" right now -- tell us what's going on in your head, ok? We are here to help. I've gotten a lot of help here, and so have many others.

Just write whatever you feel . . . .

If you are really in bad shape and need more help than this forum . . . maybe start with Penny (PM her) as she said or PM Rikki & they can guide you. I wish I could help you.

[jerryn]

My wife just reprimanded me for calling her and texting her how I feel. She basically told me that she was too busy right now.
If I get down my wife reminds me it could be a lot worse. We all get dealt a hand of cards in life and we need to make the best of what we have. It's important that you be strong for your wife too you know. Keeping your head up and just dealing with it is a sign of strenght. A lot of women dig that, at least my wife does.

[notme]

Hey ODP, try to remember that everyone has bad days. Your wife and yourself may have had a bad day together.

Hang in there buddy. Come here and talk to us. We listen really well. (sometimes)

[jerryn]

My wife just reprimanded me for calling her and texting her how I feel. She basically told me that she was too busy right now.
If you need to vent or talk about stuff I'm here in the forums too. I work at a small company so I don't know anyone with DB. My last job there was one person with Type 1 and one with Type 2. We made sure that we went for walks or hikes during lunch. Also we made sure none of us abused the free Pizza on Friday. Also we talked about stuff when our BG was unstable. When metformin + januvia didn't work for my bg was pretty high in the morning for a while my DB friends could tell what was going on and dragged me out of my cubicle to get me to go for a walk. I got it under control when I switched to more metformin and bayetta plus a lot of excercise.

We all get bummed out. I've been sticking to low carbs, the meds, plus excercise and I still spike over 240 sometimes. I get really pissed at myself when this happens. I haven't had a beer since I've been on the increased dosage of metformin.. that's like 1 year allready. I know I can't let the high spikes continue and will need to talk to the endo about some other
treatment for this disease. Since I'm active the endo wants to
run tests to see if I've got type 1.5 (MOODY). I get bummed out, but I've got to make the best of it. We all do.

[caswellhb]

ODP please pm me.
You don't have to feel this way alone. For the sake of your children talk this out. We feel for you sweetie.
We have all been through bad times and know how you feel. We are here for you. Talk to us.

Heather.

[Kim_in_TN]

(((HUGS))) We can't really be sure of what is happening in your life unless you share just a bit of it. We all DO understand feeling down and having to deal with the diabetes in addition to those feelings! I'm sorry your wife let you down when you needed her. Perhaps she will realize that she was abrupt and will apologize later. Maybe she is feeling a bit overwhelmed with some things herself right now. Please keep posting and let us know how you are doing, OK?

[odp1979]

It's not just the diabetes, I suffer from clinical depression. I am on medication. Today is just a really bad day, along with other things. My wife didn't help at all either. I have tried commiting suicide once before, but was unsuccessful, with pills. I know there's a major chemical inbalance too. Combination of all that makes for a terrible situation.

[UpNorth]

odp, you're not alone through this. We're all here for you (((Hugs)))

[Jan B]

Please know that it will get better. Hang on, and believe that you must be here for your children -- they need you. This horrible time will pass. Once you get the correct anti-depressant, it can make a lot of difference. If you don't want to air your problems to the forum, maybe you can pick someone to write privately. If you have done something and you are embarrassed about it, you aren't alone there either -- it can get better! There are a lot of very caring & genuine people on this forum -- please let us know how you are coping and if there is anything in particular you need.

[Coppernob]

ODP would you think of getting in touch with the doctor who put you on the medication and soon. It could be that you need an adjustment. Hang in there - when you feel really down it is so hard to realize that there is light at the end of the tunnel and that you will feel better. Please keep us posted as we do understand.

[patricia52]

I wish I knew what to say to make your depression go away. What have you done in the past that helped you to feel better when you had similar thoughts?

I am a female and I go shopping. It makes me feel better to get something I have been wanting, even if it is as inexpensive as a pair of socks. Other times, I get busy doing something. Clean out a drawer, fold and put away a load of clothes. If the weather is pretty, I like go outside and pull a few weeds or just take a walk. The sunshine helps to lift my spirits. Sometimes I call a friend or relative I have not talked to in a while.

Don't focus too much on your wife's remarks. She is probably having a rough day and truly was too busy to help you right then. We all get over loaded at time and can't focus on the people that mean the most to us.

If these bad feeling don't go away soon, please call someone who is qualified to help you. I am sending you a
(((((((((((((((((((((((((BIG HUG)))))))))))))))))))))))))). Hope you are feeling better soon.

[odp1979]

My wife counter acted with her being sad when she got home. Now I'm the one trying to console her, etc. How the tables have turned. I feel worse.

[Funnygrl]

ODP, if you're feeling suicidal, I recommend you ask your wife to take you to a hospital, for your own safety. You don't want something to happen you'll regret. It DOES get better.

[parrotletzoo]

If you need help please call someone.

USA NATIONAL Suicide & Crisis Hotlines - When You Feel You Can't Go On... Call a Suicide Hotline. / SuicideHotlines.com - Direction for immediate crisis intervention for the gravely suicidal & treatment for major clinical suicidal depression. (http://suicidehotlines.com/national.html)

dont put suicide ideation on a group of people that care about you but are unable to do anything about it because we don't have your personal information.


if you need to talk about a problem of course we're here to listen but please get help from a professional source if you need it.

[barbieguy]

Hi odp1979.
I agree with the others when they say to talk about it and get help anyway you can: Talking to someone, talking to suicide prevention helpline, doing some physical activity, getting new meds, going to emergency room.
Please do it for yourself and your children.
We are here to help you.
Talk and tell us what's up.
Barb

[Ionutz]

My wife counter acted with her being sad when she got home. Now I'm the one trying to console her, etc. How the tables have turned. I feel worse.

Same thing happpens here from time to time.Most of my depression is caused by diabetes. When I feel sad and depressed I listen to some music for half an hour or so and then I talk to my wife.You must find a hobby or something to keep you away from bad thoughts. I don't know why i'm telling you this but maybe if you know there are people outhere with problems like you, whom understand you, it will make you feel better.:o

[davef]

Hey ODP,

Please do "talk" to us, if you haven't contacted the people who have offered you to PM them, please do so, if you are not ready to vent or unload on us then please contact get professional assistance now.

I have a very close friend who suffers from depression, she has self harmed and made two serious suicide attempts. I can't say I know what you are going through, but I have seen my friend go through some awful times, please reach out and get some assistance.

[odp1979]

Thanks for all the replies. I am still here, doing somewhat better.

[notme]

Glad to hear it odp. Hang tough and visit often.

I hope it is a beautiful day in Coral Springs. Take the kids and hit the park if it is.

[princesslinda]

odp, glad to hear you're doing better! Be strong! Your forum family is here pulling for you.

[davef]

Good to see you posting ODP, keep on keeping on, you have lots of people here ready to support you, lean on us.

[Scrabblechick]

Caught your post this morning, ODP. So glad to see you here! Please hang on. I'm lifting you up in prayer, even as I type. Many hugs to you and I'm glad you're feeling a little better. As the others have said, if you need us, we're here. Take care!

[Eddy]

All right. I thought a poll might be apropos.

http://www.diabetesforums.com/forum/chit-chat/27400-poll-those-feeling-down.html

[Chappo]

It's not just the diabetes, I suffer from clinical depression. I am on medication. Today is just a really bad day, along with other things. My wife didn't help at all either. I have tried commiting suicide once before, but was unsuccessful, with pills. I know there's a major chemical inbalance too. Combination of all that makes for a terrible situation.

Hey ODP,

Best thing is though that you've talked about it here, and that's a good step :) As the others have said, people without diabetes (and other health-related things) don't necessarily see how it is. I've had diabetes since i was 3, so going on 19 years now, and everyone gets depressed and burnt out.

But remember you always have people here you can talk to :) When it feels as though nobody understands you have a great support network.

Remember tomorrow's a new day!

[ant hill]

Thanks for all the replies. I am still here, doing somewhat better.

Hey hang tough there mate!! Life is worth the effort. :)