feeling pretty sad

[Rob. [Type 1]]

im become really sad at times becuase of my diabetes, i wish i could just wake up and get some food without having too worry about needles and all that, i just wish there was a cure.

im becoming scared and maybe a bit paranoid about going blind and losing my feet or dieing early because my blood sugar level is always pretty high =[

am i just being paranoid? has anyone else ever felt like this?
i have no friends with diabetes, my mum has it but shes always out.. i just want someone too tell me that they no what im going through or something, i dunno im just feeling pretty sad =[

[Tropical83]

I'm sorry you feel so bad but I'm sure most of all diabetics have felt the exact same way. I've been diabetic since I was 9and I am just now realizing that I've been living in planet Venus without a clue of how to really care for myself. Unfortunately, I'm starting to see signs of complications. I hope that my Dr tells me that I can still reverse it so keep your fingers crossed for me :).

You really need to concentrate on working on your diabetes though, don't give up. You still have plenty of time, you're young and you still have a ton of room to grow. I know it really sucks but it's going to suck even more when you can't reverse anything that goes bad. Plus, we're all here and we know how you feel :)!

Keep your spirits up!

[Rob. [Type 1]]

yeah i really have too take action now, but thanks, its so relieving too be able to come on the computer and talk too oter diabetecs, its great. haha =]

[Jan B]

Rob,

You are not alone at all in these type feelings. With my 29 yrs of experience w/ T1, I still get into that dark place every so often -- usually when I'm really tired, or depressed.

I would encourage you to look at all you CAN do, and not worry so much! Take a deep breath, give yourself a big hug and do your best at controlling your blood glucose. None of us has power to know the future -- we just take the best control we can of this disease . . .

You'll likely be a strong adult -- it's got to be soooo tough at your age. I had a horrible time in my late teens, coping, etc. Now, needles, insulin, etc. is such a part of my life, it doesn't get in the way of living hardly at all. But like I said, every now and again, I get a little down about it all! Then my best medicine is to just get busy!

[Rob. [Type 1]]

thanks heaps jan, im feeling so much better with these replies from you guys haha, im really tired, i guess thats what could be wrong, i should go too bed, its 12 am in Australia
thanks again guys =D

[sugardumplin]

Hey Rob. You are not alone. Diabetes is such a weird thing. It's hard to manage. And it's a pain in the butt sometimes or.... all the time.:T You are so young and you have a full life ahead of you. Be strong and smart about it and you will do fine.

[Jan B]

;373841']thanks heaps jan, im feeling so much better with these replies from you guys haha, im really tired, i guess thats what could be wrong, i should go too bed, its 12 am in Australia
thanks again guys =D

In your case, the best medicine would be to get some good sleep -- with good bg levels -- and you should wake up feeling happier! I hate it when I'm feeling down and refuse to go to sleep . . . good night!

[Mick]

Rob--Yeah, it's no picnic being a kid with diabetes, I know all about that--I was diagnosed in 1966, at the age of 13. so I'm now in my 43rd year with diabetes. I'm pretty healthy at this stage, and remember--for my first 20 or so years of this, we had no blood glucose meters--we got our blood sugars tested maybe 2 or 3 times A YEAR!! We didn't know anything. You can live a good life with it--it DOES take a LOT of patience and self-control, I know--more than any teenager would like to exercise (I know all about teens, Rob--I teach high school and raised up 2 kids of my own!), but doing the hard work of diabetes control will make you a better person--more mature, more compassionate, more self-aware. There is absolutely nothing in my 42 diabetic years that I was unable to accomplish because of the disease. Live life, be grateful, and stay on your toes.
Michael

[Mich]

Hi Rob,

Just to let you know, there are many of us old timers out here who are pretty healthy. I hated being 16 and having diabetes, it was probably my worse year.

I too was diagnosed in the "dark ages" and I also was 13. (And by the way, you should have seen our skateboards back then: a board with skate wheels nailed on! :T ) Things are so much better now--being able to test, having many choices in foods, knowing about carbohydrates and how to count them.

And yes, we all feel down now and then. We deal with a lot every day. It sure helps to find a group like this where we all know how it feels. I agree with the point made by others here: you will be a better, stronger and more understanding person for having diabetes.

Here's hoping you wake up rested and ready go.

Mich

[pandeia]

hey dude, no worries i feel like this too, sometimes. I was diagnosed at 17, and it really sucked to have to go to the nurse everyday for shots when my other friends didn't...:( ...but it gets better! especially when you're in control of your BG numbers... i feel sooo much happier now that im in control! hang in there, we all have those "down" moments! :)

[ihd1111]

You are never alone. Every time you prick your finger or take a shot of insulin, know that somewhere in the world there is someone else doing that exact same thing. We're kind of like the Special Ops Forces in the army against those lazy pancreases. You don't always see us, but we are all around and we are all working together. I personally think all diabetics should dress as ninjas, but that's just me. Hang in there and keep coming to diabetesforums.

[soso]

It makes me sad too some days... but there is more to life and on the plus side it has opened up my world to a lot of different people all over the world... pretty sure I would never have visited a forum without it, and look how well that turned out!
Also, I think it has made me much more aware that EVERYBODY has some pain they must bear and I am not so quick to think badly of others as I wonder what their burden is..
Just keep skateboarding and having fun (good exercise too!) you still have a lot of great and wonderful things to see and do in your life...

[Psycho Penguin]

I am glad you found this site so you can discuss your feelings with people who will understand. We all have our days and we won't think less of you if you feel sad or angry. Hang in there and as you get older and more used to the condition I am sure you will be able to think about it less frequently and be able to enjoy life more.

[Rob. [Type 1]]

thanks so much guys!
haha Mich, you talking about the old plastic bananna boards?
=]

[shutterbug]

Rob, I can completely understand your feelings. Only a diabetic would understand :)

I'm ok most of the time but there are time (probably twice a week) when I feel frustrated about this disease. Things like blood sugar level, carbs, calories, fat, low-carb is all what I think about before eating or after eating.

Come here when you need support and there are bunch of nice people here to help you out!

[gettingby]

Hi Rob and Welcome. I know and understand exactly where you are coming from. I was diagnosed at 13 and have been living with this "monkey on my back" for 24 years now. My best advice, listen to Mick. He is an inspiration to me and many others here. He knows the game and knows how to play it. :)
Come on here and ask any questions you may have, vent any time you want to. We all do. And remember this:The only stupid question is a question not asked.
Good luck but I'm sure you will do just fine. :D

[Tropical83]

Hi Rob! I hope you're feeling better! :) I went to my appointment today and my Dr said that the damage to my kidneys is reversable and she put me on treatment for it - which is really good news! I told her about my new low-carbing and she told me it's worth the try! So I'm excited to know that I'm not in awful shape and there is something I can do to prevent getting there. Don't worry, things do look up a lot more than they look down when you're on your toes! Keep in touch!

[owlyn]

Stick to your routine (eat well, take insulin, exercise) and you won't be losing anything. These days, diabetes is well understood and we know what to do. It's the people who don't do what they are supposed to do, or found out that they had diabetes too late to do anything about it, that usually wind up with the complications.

At 16, it's normal to have wide mood swings. When you start to feel down, get out an do something you enjoy. Ride your board, listen to some music, whatever makes you feel better. When I was 16 (many years ago- let's just say I remember life before portable radios), I used to go for long walks. Really cleared my mind. Still works for me.

[Rob. [Type 1]]

Tropical, thats so good! im happy for you that its reversable, you must be feeling pretty good haha
and thanks heaps again everyone =]

[IrishJoe]

Yeah the people here are good. I dont know anyone else with T1 either... it kinda sucks..

Its worse when people think you have type 2 and that you 'should' be on tablets :mad: !!

[BeautifulRising]

I totally know how you feel, Rob. It isn't easy, but it could be a much worse disease, right? At least it's manageable, and it isn't something like Aids or Cancer.

I was diagnosed when I was just about to turn 16 and it totally knocked the wind out of me, but it's all good now. You should try talking to someone about maybe going to a diabetes camp as a councellor! It'd open some doors and let you meet more people your age coping with the same thing!

[s.parikh]

I must say being a newly diagnosed diabetic at 29 makes me really sad also. My doctor thinks I am type 1 but im hoping that there is a chance that im type 2 so that i can stop with the needles and carb counting :( however, altho whatever outcome comes, it still sucks. But I want you all to know that many diabetics can lead normal healthy lives with not many complications. So im not so worried :) Along with that I would like to add that at the same time i was diagnosed with diabetes i was also diagnosed with lymphoma :((( Soooo after going thru treatments and way worse needles then insulin syringes, I am just happy that i am alive and now cancer free. I am still sad that i have diabetes, but at least i know that many people deal with it. i just try to stay strong and know that it could be worse but luckily it's not :) so stay positive and keep smiling :)))

Swati XX

[ant hill]

And remember this:The only stupid question is a question not asked.
Good luck but I'm sure you will do just fine. :D

Good posting Cindy. :D
G'day Rob, You are a talented soul who can play guitar!!! and old rock which I find reare in young folk these days. Yes I am quite a bit older than you but old enough to understand this disease and it not all what you cannot have. It's having the knowlage of what the food has and balence that with the good stuff, Insulin ;):D Cindy and I know how you feel as people who seem to think "You cannot have that" remark. It's obsered to have people tell you what you should have like you would know how to play your guitar.
I like Iron Madien, great English band, I have seen ACDC at the Myer Music Bowl in '78 and gotten in with a pack of ciggies. LOL Not that I smoke, Just had them in my hand. :o
You feel worthless, Tired, Energy depleted, LOST!!! Don't be.
Get a book about carbohydrates and get to know about your Insulin to Carbohydrate ratio and then your can feel better.

Sorry as this seems a bit long winded in my post and I hope that you feel better. Buy The Way I am in Melbourne. :D:D

[Riana]

Hi Rob. Normal to feel like you do. I have been diabetic for 34 years. (was 8yrs old when diagnosed). Not easy especially in your teens/young adult years. Try your best to keep BG under control (you will sometimes fail, but it is not the end of the world). My sight is still 100%, my feet also!!! Don't stress to much please.
Kind Regards
Riana
Mosselbay
South Africa

[Joeprep4820]

I was diagnosed at 2, and luckily, 21 years later, I have experienced no complications whatsoever. Gradeschool was the toughest time for me; I was made fun of relentlessly for being Diabetic. High school was a bit easier, but there were always those times where I just didn't want it anymore. Use it as a source of strength if you must - use Diabetes as a reason to work harder at everything you do, not just for taking care of your health.

[Joeprep4820]

I totally know how you feel, Rob. It isn't easy, but it could be a much worse disease, right? At least it's manageable, and it isn't something like Aids or Cancer.

I was diagnosed when I was just about to turn 16 and it totally knocked the wind out of me, but it's all good now. You should try talking to someone about maybe going to a diabetes camp as a councellor! It'd open some doors and let you meet more people your age coping with the same thing!

I went to one of these camps when I was 12, and went until I was 16, the oldest age for campers. It was the first time I met anyone that was Diabetic and my own age! It was great, and it wasn't about the diabetes really, it was just a bunch of kids my age at a summer camp in the Pennsylvania mountains who all happened to have Diabetes. I still use a week of vacation each year to counsel there, and love every minute of it.

[lilme20]

Hi Rob, just a suggestion, next time you go to ur clinic check-up talk to the camp co-ordinator they should be able to tell u about most camps in SA. try going to either a teen camp or a training camp (to help with kid camps). i went to one about a yr n a half ago near Bris (i live in QLD if you hvn't guessed) n i'm still good friends with one of the people i met. it helps, being a teenager is a lonely time and having diabetes doesn't help but once you find out how close other teen diabetics live you might be surprised, i was. anyway good luck.
Tal

[Subby]

Just a heads up, this thread is old. Not saying that to stop people adding posts... just that Rob hasn't checked in for over a year! Maybe one day he will again.

[lilme20]

At least someone is paying attention. hahaha!!! :)

[AJ21]

Hey Rob
You are most definitely not alone! I got the disease at the age of 21, so I had quite a few 'glory years' without any worry about foods and stuff, and to suddenly be having to worry about drinking soda, eating chocolate and anything else, realllllly sucked!
I had a few 'why me days', but in the end, I just think that i'd rather have this than aything that I couldn't be in control of, you know?
Yea, it SUCKS and there's days when I just want to eat a piece of cake, and know what? I do.
I take my insulin and indulge myself.
Complications though are just something we have to be careful about.
I try to take care of myself as best i can, I"m lucky in a way that I'm OCD with testing my blood sugar and being on top of what's happening with my body, but it also can drive me insane when my bloods aren't listening to my pump.
When you feel this way, let yourself feel it.
it DOES suck, but know that we all feel the same way.

[n0rad6381]

;373832']im become really sad at times becuase of my diabetes, i wish i could just wake up and get some food without having too worry about needles and all that, i just wish there was a cure.

im becoming scared and maybe a bit paranoid about going blind and losing my feet or dieing early because my blood sugar level is always pretty high =[

am i just being paranoid? has anyone else ever felt like this?
i have no friends with diabetes, my mum has it but shes always out.. i just want someone too tell me that they no what im going through or something, i dunno im just feeling pretty sad =[

I'm new to diabetes myself... and I feel like this everyday... It's starting to pass.. realizing that It's not as bad as it seems.. there are probably a lot more people around that are and dont know it... or that are and dont say anything.. be thankful you know and that you can take care of yourself... Its not the end of the world.. try this... whenever you feel bad and doubt something or youself.. ask "will this hold up in a court of law..." it sounds silly... but trust me.. do it enough and you'll see what im talking about.. take care.. your NOT alone

Jeremy