A Newbie

[lola]

Hi All,

This is my very first time taking part in a forum so bear with me please!
Where do I start ...well, like many people on this forum I have Diabetes, I have Type 1. I was given this delightful news on September 14th 2005 in a Dublin hospital at 11.30am. The nurse who gave this life changing news was a kind,lovely lady who assured me that out of all the things you could develop in life, Diabetes was the lesser of the evils..you can have a grand normal life she smiled...

Well, its been 3 years and months now and my life is far from grand, far from normal. I wake up every single day and mourn for my old life, I want to be free from the blood glucose strips the high blood sugars, high blood pressure, key tones, the side effects of high sugars on the female body, I wont go in to the details but I'm sure you will know what i am talking about...Im lonely, don't get me wrong I have a wonderful family and partner, and they try to understand ...but they don't, they ask ...I have no one to talk to about this horrible thing inside me. I'm scary of the future and what is in store for me..

I find it pointless trying to talk to the doctors about how I feel or how hard I find day to day life...all they care about is the blood tests, the weigh gain, the high blood pressure and so on...

I'm sorry if I come across like a big moan..of course, there is worse things in life and I'm no better than anyone else..but I just don't know how to come to terms with my new life.

Well, up for work in the morning so gonna say good nite.

Take care
Lola

[yannah]

Hi there! Yeap diabetes is overwhelming! I agree. I get really overwhelmed and really scared.

How is your control? I think the better control, the less scary it is although still scary.

welcome to DF, there are alot of people who understand here.

[Marcia K in Fl]

We do understand, that is for sure.

You will have ups and downs just like the rest of us so read, read, read here and post. I have found knowledge is power and when I feel powerless the folks here help me out. It is a beautiful thing.

Welcome!

[Neo Apollo]

I took me about 20 years to really come to terms with my diabetes!

Someone once told me that you cannot let diabetes control you, but you have to control the diabetes! Once I took this philosophy on it, things got so much easier... or at least they seemed too!

All I know is that with everyone in the world that is a diabetic and everyone in this forum (Disclosure: I am brand new to this forum, but reading a long time) we can control (our individual) diabetes together!

Have a good night!

[AngelKitty]

Hello Lola and welcome to the forum :)
Being a diabetic is like walking a tight-rope - it's a balancing act - of food / insulin / exercise - with the occassional proverbial spanner in the works ;)
Glad you found us here.

[mrhodes]

Hi Lola,

We all understand what you're going through. Come here often and enjoy the crowd! Everyon's here to help

[davef]

Lola,

Failte!!

Great to have another Irish person on board. You have found a GREAT place for information, help and support. Oh yeah, the gang here will definitely "get it", there is no need to be lonely again.

We get to share experiences, advice, problems, vent and laugh together. Join in, I have found the forums to be really great in keeping me motivated and it really does have a really community spirit here. Pop into the chat room for some live chat (and a good laugh). Welcome to the family.

[DCaplinger]

Greetings. Welcome aboard, you are surrounded by people who can not only understand what you are going through... we live it.

For me, I started to accept diabetes as part of my life when I came to understand that it is only just a part of it... it's not in control of it. I am in control of my life... and my diabetes... or at least, that's what I like to tell myself. LOL.

Life's a beach. It's not fair, but we have to find a way to make it work. We didn't ask for it, nor do we want it, but all the wishing in the world won't make it go away. :(

One finger stick at a time. That's the only way you can move forward. Baby steps. The emotional aspects will take longer, because it is a grieving process. We grieve what we used to have. We've lost that. It was stolen from us. It is both reasonable and natural to have such feelings, and you have to grieve your loss to move forward.

Talk to us! We have all been there, done that. Many still are. Lean on us. :)

Regards,

D

[princesslinda]

Welcome Lola! As you can see, you've gained a new family, welcoming you with open arms, understanding, for the most part, what you're going through.

Hope you post often, as the support of others is so important.

[lola]

To My New Friends

Thank you so much for taking the time to write to me, It's a great feeling know there are actually people out there in the big wide world who understand how I feel :D

My bloods reading over the 3 months have been bad, high teen figures most days, but, I hold my hands up and say I was the cause of it, I ate ****(bad food) because most days I felt bad inside (my train of thought was "Ah sure, my bloods are **** (bad) anyway it can't get any worse" so I went on to eat the choccie bar or cake etc..." but this week, I have tried to make some small changes and would you believe I saw a small different in my reading ...it made me smile,I felt good, I'm not saying I've seen the light after just a few days but I taking those small steps to it!

Have a lovely weekend

Lola

[kgm0612]

Hi Lola & Welcome to the forum.
We are here to lend support, so don't be afraid to ask questions.

My advice to you is..........test often, keep a log book of the foods you are eating, limit your carbohydrate intake and get in some form of exercise if you're not already doing so.

Karen