Ahhh thank goddddd.

[tilly-roo]

I am so relieved.

I have an eating disorder on top of diabetes, which involves restricting insulin to lose weight. I am well aware of the damage I will cause to my body however the eating disorder is very strong and I have been in two eating disorder units for it.

However yesterday I went for a full MOT at the hospital, and I was so nervous I was physically shaking. My doctor was fantastic, I didn;t get the lecture most doctors give me because he knows that I already know all of it. He was really compassionate and kind and tried to help. Anyway, I had everything checked including my feet etc and then my eyes, and I was sure that there was going to be at least one thing wrong.

The results came back and to my disbelief I'm in as best condition as I could possibly be giving the circumstances, and I was SO relieved. It's given me great motivation to carry on with recovery before my time is 'up' so to speak. I was so scared that if there was something wrong it would have triggered me in to a 'why should I bother?' attitude as I am prone to manic depression, but it was the opposite. I now feel so motivated to get better and ring as much out of life as I can!

For those of you on here with ED's (and I know there are a few) - if you have got away with complications so far, USE IT AS MOTIVATION. I sat in that doctors room next to my mother as she asked how long I potentially have left before complications if I continue and it made me cry a lot but also filled me with drive. Please keep going and never give up, losing the use of your eyes/limbs/nerves/whatever just isn't worth it, is it, really?

[Delphinus]

I am so relieved.

I have an eating disorder on top of diabetes, which involves restricting insulin to lose weight. I am well aware of the damage I will cause to my body however the eating disorder is very strong and I have been in two eating disorder units for it.

However yesterday I went for a full MOT at the hospital, and I was so nervous I was physically shaking. My doctor was fantastic, I didn;t get the lecture most doctors give me because he knows that I already know all of it. He was really compassionate and kind and tried to help. Anyway, I had everything checked including my feet etc and then my eyes, and I was sure that there was going to be at least one thing wrong.

The results came back and to my disbelief I'm in as best condition as I could possibly be giving the circumstances, and I was SO relieved. It's given me great motivation to carry on with recovery before my time is 'up' so to speak. I was so scared that if there was something wrong it would have triggered me in to a 'why should I bother?' attitude as I am prone to manic depression, but it was the opposite. I now feel so motivated to get better and ring as much out of life as I can!

For those of you on here with ED's (and I know there are a few) - if you have got away with complications so far, USE IT AS MOTIVATION. I sat in that doctors room next to my mother as she asked how long I potentially have left before complications if I continue and it made me cry a lot but also filled me with drive. Please keep going and never give up, losing the use of your eyes/limbs/nerves/whatever just isn't worth it, is it, really?

I am happy to hear your are relieved about the results of your checkup.

Sometimes I swear I have an eating disorder.

All I do is eat... I also have no health or weight issues either.

I'm probably the main reason the makers of fast acting insulin are in business, and thriving. :D

Lucky I guess.

[Jan B]

tilly-roo,

I'm really happy for you. When you have difficulties, I hope you come back and read your own words. I practiced a little diabulimia when I was a lot younger. My cousin was worse than I was and she has a lot more problems than I do today.

You can stay slim without having to resort to hurting your body -- you really CAN! I'm no heavier than I was when I was hurting myself (even though I have fluctuated quite a bit at times). Good for you! Even though most people don't understand from an "I've been there" perspective, don't let that stop you from sharing and getting support here ok!?

[tilly-roo]

tilly-roo,

I'm really happy for you. When you have difficulties, I hope you come back and read your own words. I practiced a little diabulimia when I was a lot younger. My cousin was worse than I was and she has a lot more problems than I do today.

You can stay slim without having to resort to hurting your body -- you really CAN! I'm no heavier than I was when I was hurting myself (even though I have fluctuated quite a bit at times). Good for you! Even though most people don't understand from an "I've been there" perspective, don't let that stop you from sharing and getting support here ok!?

Thankyou so much for your kind words. Yes, I'm the same weight pretty much as when I practise it and when I don't. It's not that, I believe. It's the coping mechanism I think. I will come here for support, promise. :)

[Jan B]

Thankyou so much for your kind words. Yes, I'm the same weight pretty much as when I practise it and when I don't. It's not that, I believe. It's the coping mechanism I think. I will come here for support, promise. :)

You can always PM me too ;)

[zoelula]

Congratulations on your bill of health, tilly-roo! I was thirteen years in recovery from an eating disorder when I was diagnosed with diabetes (15 now) and am grateful for every day of it because I'm sure it is not easy to deal with both at the same time. PM me anytime (I actually sent you a message last week after you posted on this issue!)
Zoe